Ditto to above comment, particularly about asking your family to accept more responsibility. I have a few questions to ask....if you have a TRUE diagnosis of Bipolar Disorder, Zyprexa is NOT a first line drug of choice to use...and you're right, it DOES cause weight gain. Neurontin might be a good drug to try to treat both Bipolar Disorder AND Chronic Pain. If Prozac worked for you before, why not use it again? It's cheap now that it's gone generic. And, if you DO have Bipolar Disorder, it sounds like you're in the depressed cycle, in which case you could use Prozac along with the Neurontin.
I would recommend you go for REHAB vs. Personal Training..my experience is that those who deliver care in rehab are either Exercise Physiologists or Physical Therapists....Personal Trainers(although they may be certified) are not always the best choice for Chronic Pain sufferers..you may be pushed beyond the limits of what is good and right for YOUR SPECIFIC LIMITATIONS. Hydrotherapy(water therapy) is terrific!! Keep on keepin' on....there IS hope!!!
I have a strong recommendation...see a psychotherapist and talk through the conflicts that keep from getting some new momentum in your life....you are in a stop/start pattern, which is a manifestation of a contradictory set of motivations and unconscious agendas. These can be surfaced and worked out, but you need help to do that.
The first thing you need to find out is if the excercise is doing further damage! Next, start an excercise regimine in EXTREMELY low amounts and listen to your body. Talk to your doctor about your trouble sleeping. Ask your doctor about physio-therpy. Percodan (Oxycontin) is a very powerful drug. It has been prescribed to you because of the DEGREE and TYPE of pain you are experiencing. Your husband is right to be concerned but you are in alot of pain. It's time to be a little selfish! The others in the household need to take on a little more work as they are more physically capable than you at this point in your treatment.
Good-Luck,
Jerry