HOCD?

I've been wondering recently if I have turned gay and after some research I think that I may have some form of ocd. Out of nowhere a couple of days ago I got a thought that there's a possibility that I might have turned gay. I've never felt any sexual feelings towards a man before, and still don't have any feelings. I've always been extremely attracted to females and still feel some attraction, although it has decreased while I've been obsessed. I keep thinking that I might be attracted to guys, and may have sexual feelings. However, I never actually get any sexual feelings, although I keep questioning if I did or not in the moments after. Every time I hear the word gay, or see a guy, I start to get an awful feeling in my stomach and start obsessing over whether or not I am gay. I'm scared out of my mind, and I'm really scared that if I talk to someone they'll tell me that Im gay and I couldn't handle that at all. Before this I was never afraid of being gay, or ever felt any ill-feelings towards gay people, and very open and supportive of people who are gay. I don't know if this makes any sense but I feel like this feeling will never go away. Does this follow or make any sense in terms of hocd. Please help, and please tell me I'm not gay. PS: Is it even possible for people to turn gay? I've been completely straight for all 20 years of my life. I'm sorry if this is offensive to people who are gay, I just want to get back to my old self, where I feel comfortable and normal and like me. Also, if someone feels the same way I hope this helps, as I've found some other forums to be helpful.

[Roger Gould, M.D.]

You are experiencing ocd. It is a symptom of anxiety..it has nothing whatsoever to do about being gay, so put that worry aside and get yourself treated for ocd by a good psychiatrist.