How to help myself?

I recently turned 50 and have been in menapaus for 2 years now.  I had gone from exercising 3-5 times a week to nothing.  I lost interest in things, felt tired all the time, just a complete mess. Tried and still use Soy, tried HRT and didn't feel it helpful so I stopped.  A friend (ha!) recommended these diet pills she gets online.  I started taking them about a year ago and after 3 months of nothing really happening I wanted to stop taking them, everytime I try to stop I get really sick and the depression is 100 times worse.  I am at the moment without medical insurance.  I can not take any time off of work so I have kept taking them just so I can go to work.  I want to be off these so bad I cry daily about it but I don't have the means or the time to go into a rehab (I read that online somewhere) Isn't there anyway of coming off these terrible pills while still going to work?  Is there anything that can help me not be so sick?  I advise anyone who even thinks of diet pills to run very fast in the opposite direction.  I can't tell my husband either, he has been very abusive in the past and that's just to scarey to even contemplate.  Please don't just say I have to go into a hospital because I can't.  Is there a way of doing this myself?  I don't have 'addictive' tendacies, I only took these to help my energy and mood. Never before in my life have I had any trouble with substances, it was just a terrible misjudgement and now my body (and mental state) won't let me stop.  Is there anything I can do myself?  Or even with my doctor, is there anything he can do to help me if I tell him?  Again other than being hospitalized. Please help!
Thank You

[Roger Gould, M.D.]

yes, your doctor can help you substitute other medication, including antidepressants or anti anxiety medications that can bridge you while you get off of the diet pills.