I question about an symptom

Recently i've notice that when i',m depressed my visions seems to get worst.  I just got my eyes check about 2 weeks ago and they said i had normal eyes.  Is that part of the depression?  Is there anything i can take to make it better.  I refused to go in see a doctor so i hope there some sort of home remedy.  

[Roger Gould, M.D.]

Vision impairment is not usually assosiated with depression but can happen under extreme depression, but that is not what you are describing.  I don't think of it as a psychiatric symptom, so no remedy I can think about except exploring the possibility it is simply fatigue.

[Jack246]

How serious are we talking about?  here a list of all my symptoms:
I've been having these extremely weird dream that has been getting me
kinda worried. First off, i always have complete control in these kinda dream. They generally happen when I am kinda tired, and i take a nap. They usually start with me dreaming about a very realistic situation. For example, taking a shower, or playing some video game with a friend. During the dream, it feels very real, like i think its reality. Then something in my dream sparks something and my vision(in my dream) goes crazy (very shaky), and its very hard for me to move. This last about 20 seconds when i realize i was just dreaming and wake up. Sometimes my vision is still kinda shaky but i am normally very tired. So i go back to sleep, but instantly when i close my eyes, whatever i was looking, while i was awake, i have the same image in my mind. Now if i stay with my eyes closed, it will only be a matter of time before my vision goes shaky or its get hard for me to move. During these dream i normally breath, but when i start to think about my breathing, its hard to tell if i am breathing when try to breath out of my mouth. But i know i can breath out of my nose. The dreams when i go back is very surreal

Now in day to day life, I've notice some things that also that are about to worry me. Its hard for me to remember things, especially names. i can remember then, but it just takes me alot of effort to remember them. i also am forgetting information that i use to know like it was the back of my hand. It feels like i second guessing myself. My thought feel very scattered most of the time. As a result its hard for met o focus on a conversation. I can do it, it just takes a lot of effort. I don't know if it's social anxiety or something, but it take me a lot of effort to be in a conversation. But when i get started, i do ok until the next day where it feels like i almost forgot how to act again. Also i've notice some changes in my vision. Sometimes when i walk out of doors or something, i see a flash of light go across. I sometimes see a flash like somebody took a picture behind me. It's also difficult to look at tile with a lot of lines in it. I keep seeing mini flashes with the small tile that sometime form shapes.

All this stuff is finally getting to me, and my depression, that wasn't to bad seems to be getting worst.  I'm having suicidal thoughts more and more often.  It's to the points where its not "if" i'm gonna commit suicide, but when.  i already figure out the way i will do it. I started hurting myself again, and i cut myself for the first time yesterday.  it feels don't know anything anymore.  I just feel so alone and afraid.