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I think i am going nuts
I like my life, but some days i just freak out there is to much going on. I had to start making list of the goals and arruns i wanted to do for the day just so i could remeber them, I am a pretty relaxed person outside, but inside it is like there are 400 things to do at once, and i cant do anything with out thinking about it or counting it a million times. when i do my bills for the week i have to go over and over with it no only in my head but on paper, i Know what i am gonna pay but i always have to be sure. I tell myself to do somthing but i am so overwelmed that i can't complete the task. For example if I i want to go to the library,pick up some hand towels, then head to get my mail,and stop for gas, it takes so much i feel so drained cuz while i am doing these task i cant think of anything but the task, and if i get side tracked i have to head home, i have to get out i just cant do it then i cant talk myself into trying to finish my arruns cuz i know what a task it will be, And the balck outs i have them all the time, there are days i cant remember, hours minute, i know this sounds funny but it's not, some days i get home pull up in my car and have no idea whow i got there, Or I am at work and i am doing my work then the phone will ring i will look up and hours have passed. I mean i can function but it scares me what am i doing how amd i living, why can't i remember. Why do i keep forgeting, then i try to remember but it makes me more stressed, trying to think back, it tires me out alot, some days i will get home and be exsausted But the black outs r really crazy i forget whole days, most of the time i am not sure i remember them at all in the first place. I could get in a car accident and forget about it till i c one on the news, and say to my family oh by the way a car hit me today... like if it didnt happen to me, cuz i cant remember any of it , then it hits me like...boom and all of it comes flooding back... Please help me
I feel bad for you I used to have panic and anxiety attacks so bad I could not leave my house ,if I did I would get so scared I thought I would die before I got back home ,I was trying to work because I had 2 kids to care for and I was threatened to be fired everyday because I would start crying at work and have to run out and leave, my heart would race so fast and I would shake real bad it was just horrible ,I took paxil for about 15 years and it got me under control now I am going to start taking wellbutrin and see if it helps my depression more ,my husband had a stroke last year and I am his caregiver plus I work everyday and have to take him with me and he can't walk or talk and I feel like I am losing my mind sometimes he drives me crazy ,I feel so bad for him but its harder on me then him I do believe ,I run a business so he goes with me but I can't get anything done for helping him all the time .
I HAVE HAD ANIEXTY DISORDER FOR 23 YEARS I AM 44 YEARS OLD. AT IT SEEMS TO ONLY GET WORSE EVERYDAY IT SEEMS. I TAKE KLONOPIN 1 MG 2 TIMES A DAY AND XANAX 0.5 MG 3 TIMES A DAY. SOMETIMES I THINK I AM LOSING MY MIND.I HAVE TO DOUBLE UP SOMETIME ON BOTH MY MEDS. I ALSO SUFFER FROM DEPRESSION. I USE TO TAKE LEXPRO BUT I TOOK MYSELF OFF IT BECAUSE OF THE WIEGHT GAIN . I USE TO TAKE EFFXOR 37.5 3 TIMES A DAY THE DR I HAVE NOW WILL NOT PUT ME ON IT. ALTHOUGH I KNOW IT WORKS. I HAVE 5 CHILDREN BUT ONLY 1 AT HOME AND HE IS 8 AND IS BIPOLAR, ADDHD, MENTAL RETARDATION, OCD, PRETTY MUCH EVERYTHING . I DO THE BEST I CAN BUT I SCREAM AND IT FEELS LIKE NO ONE EVEN LISTENS TO WHAT I HAVE TO SAY. MY CONCERN IS MY DR SAYS I WILL ALWAYS BE ON MY MEDS. AND TO BE HONEST I WOULD BE SCARED TO DEATH TO EVEN TRY TO GET OFF THEM I HAVE BEEN ON THEM SO LONG. DOES ANYONE OUT THERE HAVE ANY SIMILAR SITIATIONS? ALSO MY ATTACKS ARE WORSE AT NITE . I SLEEP RARELY. AND IF I DO I HAVE TO TAKE SOMETHING TO HELP ME SLEEP. .I JUST FEEL HELPLESS. ANY SUGGESTIONS ARE MORE THAN WELCOME.
Don't just let a doctor tell you all your labs are "within range" Your TSH should be around 1 or 2. That is where most people feel optimal. I waled around with hypothyroidism for 5 years or more before it was treated. I was the walking dead. Now that my thyroid is in check, I am suffering from depression. Thyroid issues and depression go hand and hand.
Here's a web site for further reference.
http://autoimmunedisease.suite101.com/article.cfm/thyroid_disease_psychiatric_aspect
http://autoimmunedisease.suite101.com/article.cfm/thyroid_disease_psychiatric_aspect
2om2om,
A couple years ago I had all the same symptoms you are discribing. I thought I had a brain tumor or something & was scared to death. I had every symptom you mentioned & more. I just knew was losing it!!!!!
I thought, I can't go to the doctor & tell him I feel like this...the symptoms were so bizarre & totally not me...he'll think I'm a head head case. Some kind of nut!! I'm a women & a nurse of 32 years...& I knew that was the first thing the doctor would think. I was soooooooo...exhausted I couldn't think or reason...my gosh, it was actually an effort to try & put a thought or a sentence together. It was horrible. By the time I went to the doctor I could barely function. I would lay in bed at night & couldn't even put thoughts enough to pray except Jesus help me...Jesus help me...over & over again until I fell off to sleep. I didn't even share my symptoms with my husband.
When I finally had to see the doctor I only told him a few symptoms I had been experiencing (because I knew what he'd think if I really told him how I felt)& of course the first thing he said is "you're depressed" & gave me Wellbutrin. I stood there & cried. By then, I was so overwhelmed that part of me really didn't care if I did die. I just couldn't live like this anymore. And was tried of dealing with what I totally didn't understand.
It's a good thing my doctor did decide to pull some lab & checked my TSH,(thyroid stimulating hormone), which hadn't changed much in the past 10 years, but he also tested my circulating hormone (free T-4) & found it was way to high. After taking me off of my thyroid replacement medication, which I had been taking daily, he found out after a series of testing that I was trully hyperthroid (HIGH THYROID) due to graves disease. *Note I had been treated for LOW thyroid since 1983 & had yearly lab done).* ((((((I could have gone into I thyroid storm which is life threatening.)))))
Even after that diagnose I know he felt the extent & severity of some of my symptoms didn't fit in what he knew as thyroid problems. Doctors treat low thyroid every day but(true)high thyroid is out of their realm usually. I was told after one of my tests that every cell in my body was racing 3x s faster than normal. EVERY CELL!!!
Also due to lingering symptoms of numbness & tingling along with short term memory problems & difficulty concentrating, I was also found to have significant B-12 definiency. Which I now take wkly shots for. Many of the symptoms of these two conditions are the same.
To get to my point, anxiety, panic attacks, memory loss, racing mind, anxiety & depression are not always a diagnosis but many times symptoms of an underlying disease. When I look back now I had many other small symptoms that came on intermittently & so slowly I just swept them under the rug & went on. After being diagnosed I reviewed the symptoms for my diseases & I think (hey I had of have had that symptom) & it just became another unexplained thing that was happening & I forgot about.
If the doctor had not took my SYMPTOMS seriously & gave me that magic medication for aniety or depression I trully beleive I would have been dead today.
Now that my underlying diseases have been treated.
I no longer have those symptoms. NO panic attacks, anxiety attacks , palpitations, no extreme fears, obsessive compulsive disorder. To me these are symptoms not the diagnosis. And if they are a diagnosis it should only be called that after every thing else has been excluded.
AND YES I WAS ANXIOUS & DEPRESSED BUT WHO WOULD'NT BE!!! %-} BUT, IT WAS MORE THAN THAT!!!
I still have residual symptoms from the B-12 deficiency
but I am able to funtion now.
Please, first of all see your family physican to rule out underlying causes of these symptoms.
If you get your thyroid tested make sure your doctor does a TSH, free T-3 & free T-4 & auto-immune antibodies for graves (high) or hashimotis (low) disease. Also ask them to check your B-12 level.
These are all blood tests which can be drawn in one sample.
Let us know how your doing, ok.
God Bless You & good luck,
TJ
A couple years ago I had all the same symptoms you are discribing. I thought I had a brain tumor or something & was scared to death. I had every symptom you mentioned & more. I just knew was losing it!!!!!
I thought, I can't go to the doctor & tell him I feel like this...the symptoms were so bizarre & totally not me...he'll think I'm a head head case. Some kind of nut!! I'm a women & a nurse of 32 years...& I knew that was the first thing the doctor would think. I was soooooooo...exhausted I couldn't think or reason...my gosh, it was actually an effort to try & put a thought or a sentence together. It was horrible. By the time I went to the doctor I could barely function. I would lay in bed at night & couldn't even put thoughts enough to pray except Jesus help me...Jesus help me...over & over again until I fell off to sleep. I didn't even share my symptoms with my husband.
When I finally had to see the doctor I only told him a few symptoms I had been experiencing (because I knew what he'd think if I really told him how I felt)& of course the first thing he said is "you're depressed" & gave me Wellbutrin. I stood there & cried. By then, I was so overwhelmed that part of me really didn't care if I did die. I just couldn't live like this anymore. And was tried of dealing with what I totally didn't understand.
It's a good thing my doctor did decide to pull some lab & checked my TSH,(thyroid stimulating hormone), which hadn't changed much in the past 10 years, but he also tested my circulating hormone (free T-4) & found it was way to high. After taking me off of my thyroid replacement medication, which I had been taking daily, he found out after a series of testing that I was trully hyperthroid (HIGH THYROID) due to graves disease. *Note I had been treated for LOW thyroid since 1983 & had yearly lab done).* ((((((I could have gone into I thyroid storm which is life threatening.)))))
Even after that diagnose I know he felt the extent & severity of some of my symptoms didn't fit in what he knew as thyroid problems. Doctors treat low thyroid every day but(true)high thyroid is out of their realm usually. I was told after one of my tests that every cell in my body was racing 3x s faster than normal. EVERY CELL!!!
Also due to lingering symptoms of numbness & tingling along with short term memory problems & difficulty concentrating, I was also found to have significant B-12 definiency. Which I now take wkly shots for. Many of the symptoms of these two conditions are the same.
To get to my point, anxiety, panic attacks, memory loss, racing mind, anxiety & depression are not always a diagnosis but many times symptoms of an underlying disease. When I look back now I had many other small symptoms that came on intermittently & so slowly I just swept them under the rug & went on. After being diagnosed I reviewed the symptoms for my diseases & I think (hey I had of have had that symptom) & it just became another unexplained thing that was happening & I forgot about.
If the doctor had not took my SYMPTOMS seriously & gave me that magic medication for aniety or depression I trully beleive I would have been dead today.
Now that my underlying diseases have been treated.
I no longer have those symptoms. NO panic attacks, anxiety attacks , palpitations, no extreme fears, obsessive compulsive disorder. To me these are symptoms not the diagnosis. And if they are a diagnosis it should only be called that after every thing else has been excluded.
AND YES I WAS ANXIOUS & DEPRESSED BUT WHO WOULD'NT BE!!! %-} BUT, IT WAS MORE THAN THAT!!!
I still have residual symptoms from the B-12 deficiency
but I am able to funtion now.
Please, first of all see your family physican to rule out underlying causes of these symptoms.
If you get your thyroid tested make sure your doctor does a TSH, free T-3 & free T-4 & auto-immune antibodies for graves (high) or hashimotis (low) disease. Also ask them to check your B-12 level.
These are all blood tests which can be drawn in one sample.
Let us know how your doing, ok.
God Bless You & good luck,
TJ
I think, and I am not an expert, but talking to someone about your situation I believe will help you immensley. Sometimes holding all this "freaky" stuff in is hard on a person. Like someone else said (the dr.) I think that a pyschiatrist or pyschologist would be able to help you sort out all of this. Talking helps you confirm to yourself t hat you are not going crazy...but sitting thinking about "all' this stuff could make you think you are. By the way I agree that you are not going crazy...you are fine and just probably under stress and will be fine when this is sorted through. Keep yourself onroute to seeking the best for yourself you are worth it!
So glad you came to this forum! (I am from the anxiety one) It seems like it helped you! i am glad!! Take care!
It does sound like anxiety or panic attacks. Cognitive therapy can help with or without meds.Learn what the triggers are and don't plan too much for one outing or too many tasks in one day.
i am just glad no one siad i was losing my mind, Cuz some times that is exactlly how i feel, thank u both i am going to look up the the drug and adult add
MEDICAL PROFESSIONAL
You are experience a kind of anxious 'flooding' of the mind and have lost, temporarily, the self reflective part of yourself. You should get help from a psychiatrist who will consult with you and talk you through this, and will give you additional help with medication if that is what you need. This is a very typical anxiety situation, and you can be helped immensely, in a short period of time.
Hi
Let the forum doctor confirm this with you on his post, but the symptoms you are describing sound like classic Adult ADD symptoms. Talk to your doctor about Strattera. Strattera is a non-stimulant and won't become habit forming. Short-Term memory loss (blackouts) are usually cause by this. I would go with that, because you have little to nothing to lose.
By the way, you are not going NUTS. This is a result of stress. I really think Strattera would be at least a good start for treatment.
Again, I am not a doctor I am just going by my personal knowledge. Consult with your doctor about this first.
Go to Strattera.com and see if the symptoms they post on their for Adult ADD ring bells with yours.
Let the forum doctor confirm this with you on his post, but the symptoms you are describing sound like classic Adult ADD symptoms. Talk to your doctor about Strattera. Strattera is a non-stimulant and won't become habit forming. Short-Term memory loss (blackouts) are usually cause by this. I would go with that, because you have little to nothing to lose.
By the way, you are not going NUTS. This is a result of stress. I really think Strattera would be at least a good start for treatment.
Again, I am not a doctor I am just going by my personal knowledge. Consult with your doctor about this first.
Go to Strattera.com and see if the symptoms they post on their for Adult ADD ring bells with yours.
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