I'm 13.What's wrong with me?

In short:
Smoked weed with a couple of friends,repeated 3-4 times,got depersonalization and anhedonia 4th time,went to doctor,he said he won't tell my parents,he sent me to a psychiatrist,seeing him in a couple of weeks.

I want to know what's wrong with me.Here's a list of symptoms:
-Anhedonia
-Depersonalization
-Emotionless
-Time goes by fast
-Bad memory
-Almost no concentration
-I feel as like a part of my personality is gone
....

Before this I was a fun guy.I enjoyed nature and everything.Now life is boring.
When I smoked weed I started getting real depersonalized(I didn't know it back then).I was feeling awful.I first started laughing then I started to feel real sad.I asked my friend why I was feeling sad but he didn't reply.Now when I got worse and worse he started making fun of me.He thought I was high and I was joking around.He started saying how he's a bird and how he's gonna jump of a cliff or something.I gathered up the strength and stood up holding him.I didn't think so everything I heard was real to me.After that he started saying how I'm in a coma and that we're in the future or some crap.That experience traumatized me.Especially because of my friend.

Well,I was feeling ok a couple of days ago.I didn't feel emotions,still felt depersonalized but there was a balance.A couple of days ago I was going to the bakery with the same friend that I smoked weed with.He started talking and I suddenly started feeling 100% depersonalized again.I don't know what caused this.It just happened.My balance was ruined.We went to the bakery every day on recess but it was the first time that happened.

Now every time I talk with him alone I start feeling as bad as I did before.

Why did this happen?
Will I recover?
Will the psychiatrist tell my parents that I smoked weed?
What's wrong with me?

P.S.I'm 13.From Croatia,Europe.

[Roger Gould, M.D.]

You don't sound like you are thirteen, but if you are, I can't legally answer you so just see your psychiatrist.

[CoolCroatian]

wat

[whitecat78]

my opinion its sounds like a post traumatic stress from a possible  panic attack and ocd.  for example when you see your friend it brings back the traumatic event, then you obsess over it.  i have had a panic attack and i have felt depersonalization, mine felt like dread and impending doom.  Being around certain people or places i become unbalanced, i get severe stress, anxiety and fatigue.  the way that has helped me, is face my fears and try to look at things in a different way.

[bumface1973]

I must admit your post is very well written for a 13yr old Croatian, it seems more adult in the language. However you are concerned. I know that smoking weed in a very common 'recreational habbit' for many people. I know people that do it regularly and have done for years with seemingly no side effects. I also know people who it has effected psychologically to the point it has caused long term problems. One neighbour of mine committed suicide and his parents were quoted as stating his experimentation in college with the drug led to his long term mental illness. Some people are prone to it, some are not. And strains of the drug are becomming stronger, leading to it being re-classified in the U.K. I am not trying to scare you, but state plainly what I think you know. If you are 13 and bright enough to write in the way you have. STAY AWAY from it and I'm quite sure your 3/4 times of smoking it, will in a short time, be nothing more than a lesson learned. You are also bright enough to know that if 'the friend' is a real friend they will except you don't want to smoke it again, if they don't accept it, you should make other real friends too. I think your pyschiatrist has to abide by the same rules of confidence that your Doctor does.