I've been questioning my diagnosis for the past couple of months so I figured I'd ask on this forum and see what a doctor thinks about it.
I was seeing a psychiatrist for a few years but she stopped seeing me after diagnosing me with borderline personality disorder. She also diagnosed me with dysthymia, social anxiety disorder, and obsessive-compulsive features.
I was originally thought to have bipolar disorder and psychosis NOS but to be quite honest I'd prefer the diagnosis of borderline seeing as this way I don't need to take medication. The borderline covers a wide range of my problems, but it's the other diagnoses I question.
I don't think I have social anxiety disorder, but I'm given medication for it. I do have problems in crowded places, or speaking/eating in public places when I'm not with anyone familiar, but if I'm with a friend or family member I have no problems at all in public. I also can't go somewhere I've never been before without a friend or family member. Is this social anxiety disorder or was my doctor wrong?
I also question dysthymia, after looking it up it has confused me quite a bit. This disorder says nothing about being suicidal, and yet I've been suicidal for a large part of my life (for the past 11 years I'd say I've been suicidal more days than not). If I'm suicidal would that change the diagnosis of dysthymia to major depressive disorder? There's also the issue of when I become more depressed I often become psychotic, which doesn't fit into dysthymia at all as far as I can tell.
As far as having obsessive-compulsive traits, I have no idea what that entails. As far as I'm concerned I'm as far from OCD as you can get, the only times I worry or become obsessive about anything are when I'm depressed and I have no compulsions.
I'd ask a doctor here all these but I have none right now. I have an intake appointment for a mental health service place at the end of October but I was hoping for at least a bit of insight before then.