I am a 20 year old female college student. I know that being emotional at my age is typical but i have noticed my mind set spiraling out of control. I used to be a happy person, but now I feel like i am just pretending to be happy. My friends used to make me feel accepted, they used to give me a feeling of happiness, but now I don't feel like I can reach them anymore, even though they haven't changed. It seems that they are all moving on and getting boyfriends and finding their happiness but I'm not, and when ever i search for an explanation I can't find it. So I blame myself because I can't think of any other culprit. I struggle with my weight, I have been over weight since I was a child and I blame my food problems for my lack of a love life. I am usually either bingeing or I am eating very little, I can't find a balance there. My sleep cycle is off balance but I don't think I am an insomniac. I hate that I am resentful of my friends for being happy, I WANT them to be happy, and I hate myself for being bitter about it. Sometimes when I get home from a party I can barely hold my tears back in the car and when I get home I cry for hours in my bed. I'm not even sure why I'm crying, sometimes I think it's self pity, which makes me feel even more pathetic, and so I cry more. I guess, what I'm saying is should I be seeking professional help or do I just have a case of the blues?
Sincerely,
Jules