a lots of troubles

Hi. It feels great to finally be able to ask some questions.

Ok. From the beginning: When I was a child I was shy, started to have tics, was abused + went through 2 divorces. At age of 20 I'd moved to 7 different locations incl. cities, lost both my parents + one of my two brothers in prison, the other one living abroad.
Last year of highschool after a long long period of selfcritisism and strong feelings of inadequacy, it was like the air leaked out of me. I lost the selfesteem to a maximum, it happened in a split of a second, and after that was so afraid to be among people that I barely dared to go out. After I lived alone, depression got worse and I felt more and more lost, until I started to mix my whole existence up. I was living alone with compulsive and intense thoughts of doubt about everything including myself. + Lost selfesteem, I felt like I was totally "naked", no mental protection whatsoever, completeley exposed with my vulnerability. At the same time I had to put up with social pressure all alone, with no one having a clue what I went through. Was to weak to see a pshycologist. However, when I thought things couldn't get worse, I started to doubt my sexuality, thinking I was turning gay. Everything turned black right away. Terrible to go through such things with no bloody support from nowhere! Drank more and more beer, and then had breakdowns puking and crying in agony and and then up to 4 sleeples nights in a row.

Been having severe headaches time to time, like my head's gonna explode, can't find peace. Can pills like paxil and prozac still help or?

[Roger Gould, M.D.]

Yes, Paxil and Prozac can be of great help, but its best to do that and talk things through with a psychologist.  its the best thing you can do for yourself...you are someone who is open and struggling and would get  a lot out of it.  do it for yourself.