caregiver

i took care of my wife for all of my married life, she was on kidney dialysis, she just passed away this dec 7 and it has been very tough. For over 28 years i struggled with her illness which included two bouts of breast cancer. Of the years we were married i dialyzed her at home for some 10 years.
It was a most emotionally trying time but now i find myself even more depressed and distraught. I have recurring nightmares and inability to sleep, plus i find myself loosing control almost anywhere at anytime in uncontrollable crying. I had been taking some valium that was hers in the beginning but have since stopped because of possible addiction. Should i be just waiting it out or take some medicine.

Art

[Roger Gould, M.D.]

Your loss is profound on so many levels that it may be quite useful for you to talk to someone, either a clergyman or a therapist/counselor.  In addition, medications can help take the edge off of your suffering but don't take so much that it turns off all of your feelings.

[Jessi63]

Go get some help.  There is no way you can do this on your own.  Good luck and prayers sent your way.