Hello, I am going through a stressful time now ( parents divorce). I am married with my own family but it is still very stressful. Latly I have been having these crazy thoughts that come flying through my head and they scare me. I would NEVER EVER do anything harmful to my, my husband or kids, but these horrible thoughts come through my head and taunt me, and then I seriously get scared of myself. It makes me feel so guilty that I can even think such a thing, but the thing is, is that Im not really thinking it, it just pops in my head.
If i hear some crazy story on the radio or tv show, then later on that story comes to my head but with me doing the crazy action to somone I love.
Its so scary for me because my whole life is my husband and kids, yet I have these sick thoughts.
I have always been a more nervous, anxious person.
Is this normal? Can it be just from stress? Can it be a mental illness?
If you have any experience with this, or advice I would sincerely appreciate it, Thank you for your time.
I have exactly the same thing going on. It is scary and the thoughts do just seem to pop into your head, even though you don't want them to. My life is centered around my husband and kids too. I don't want to hurt myself. I started telling my Dr. and it helps alot. I also started counseling just today. I have felt better all afternoon. Write to me if you need to. Jen
thanks it makes me feel good to know Im not the only one. I am looking for a therapist now. Did your therapist say you need meds? I really hope mine will say i dont need meds -that kind of scares me and will make me feel like i have a mental condition, know what i mean?
I just found this forum. (Not sure if this is the right place to post) I have never posted on anything like this before. I cannot believe what happened to me 2 days ago. My son is 6 mths. He is the best baby and I am so happy with him. I never had a day of postpartum, not even a minute- besides re-living birth for a few days- I had a natural birth and it was a little harder than I had expected (well a lot). But anyway, I cannot think of anything that I am stressed about (besides keeping the house clean, but I am always like that). My husband is great, etc. etc.. However, when our baby was 5 weeks old our best friend died of cancer. This was very hard for us, as he was only 30 yrs old, and was diagnosed and died within a year. I spent the past few weeks getting very stressed out about death- his, my families, and my own. Then one minute I heard my baby on the monitor and this thought "popped" into my head- just like the poster above said. It was something like "I wish she was dead" I could NOT believe that I "said" that. And yet I knew it wasn't me. Since then, I have become obsessed with the fact that I thought that. Now everytime I look at her I think it or a version of it. I have tried so hard to replace the saying to try and re-route my brain- but I feel like I have started a behavioral pattern or something. I don't know what to do- I feel so guilty and I know that is making it worse.
wow, I guess I'm not alone here! What this is is OCD. I have it and it really went into overdrive during and after pregnancy. Scary thoughts. Makes you feel like you are going crazy. Meds and therapy help! Don't go through it alone. We are not crazy.
Mine pretty much focused on the baby and myself. If I watched anything about someone killing a baby or there family I would think about it all the time and wonder if I could do it too. Then it would make me depressed. Ugh a terrible cycle.
Like if I saw or read something I would somehow become like that?? Does not make sense but if you have OCD nothing makes sense.
Everyone hang in there it will get better. Remind yourself these thoughts are part of disease not you.
omg i cnt belive this,this is exactly wat im going through i cnt belive i found sum1 like this i thought it was only me. mine startd wen i watches a horror movie halloween nite and wen i watched like i hav plenty of times but this time i started thinking what if i ever hurt sum1 r myself and i keep getting images in me head of this happening and i get really scared and hav got really depressed over it.i think of images of sum1 hurting me like brreaking me neck r wrists r anytin and i actually jump frm it and i actually hold my wrists.even wen i see somethin sharpe in the huser anywer i cry cuz my mind wrks overtime. im only 18 to. so wat yas fink it is..is it im going crazy are is it ocd??plz let me knw.
hello im 18 and im exactly like u i cnt belive i found sum1 else. i watched a horror movie and i thought in me head wat if i ever done that and hurt sum1 r myself and i wud never want to and i kep qusetioning myself and get real down and depressed over it. i hav appointment with the doctor on monday and i actually cnt wait to tell them. i want this gone soo much. do u think its ocd?
It's good that you are going to see a Dr. sounds like OCD but they would be a better judge. I alwats thought OCD was those checking /handwashing types. Thouse are compulsions. I learned you can have OCD with just primarily obsessions..
It is nice to see we are no alone, this board helps me feel a little better.
this board is really awesome! im so happy to see im not the only one. These thoughts seriously freak me out and make me feel terribly horribly guilty.
I sit there in the kitchen cooking looking at my gorgeous amazing 4 month old and then these horrible thoughts come to my head, like if im holding a knife to chop onions of course i start to think what else this knife could do and then i feel sooooooo horrible aand guilty i just want to cry.
how could i turn my head off from thinking this way???? I really dont want medication do u think therapy alone can help?
go to ur doctor and see i hav an appointment on monday i feel i cnt control me thoughts and im losing my mind but i jus wana get better so i wud take medication if nessacary..i will ask 1st wat the side affects are cuz some can make u worse ,but just ask and see wat they say.
Omg im the same!!!!
i dont like it ether!! im 14 and it is hard iv hade it for a looong time my mind tells me im a bad person.......my mom tells me im not...because iv never done antthing bad!!! but i feel like i did..(i did not do anyihing i would NEVER do anything!!!)...its just nice to know there is others JUST like me!!!!!
im seeing a Dr and it sooo helps im glad i got one...thanks to my mom!!
hi ive been writing on this coloum im soo glad ders more people like these its so scary i think images of me hurting people i love and i get so depressed over it,i wud never do nofin like it but its eatin away at me. i feel so down and annoyed at myself 4 doin this to myself. i dont wana go out no more and i dnt wana b near people cuz these thoughts come in my head..hate it like and im only 18. i do hope i find out wat the case is on monday.
As a spiritual Persons point of view : satan can come against you and your family in a blink of an eye ..be aware that thought of suicide , murder ,depression .all those things are spiritual battles ..even myself i still get attacked in my sleep ..paralized speachless ,eyes wide open and feeling a evil pressence trying to kill me ..has happend to me since childhood .. i can actually hear it coming on ...never went to the doctor .. i always PRAY when it happens and rebuke it in the name of JESUS .. even tho i cant verbally say it because im speechless i pray it in my head and i defeat it ..
The devil #1 goal is to destroy families do not let him do it ! go to church get ur children involved in church .. remember it takes faith the size of a mustard seed to move mountains ..Jesus is the most powerful prescriptions u will ever need ..just try it with your heart .. when ill thougts come to your mind speak this with your mouth with faith .. DEVIL I REBUKE THOSE THOUGHTS IN THE NAME OF JESUS ..LORD I GIVE THIS TO YOU AND BELEIVE YOU HAVE THE POWER TO TAKE ALL THIS AWAY ! THANK YOU JESUS ... watch what happens..
thankz for reading me ... i will pray for everybody on this page ..
Thank you so much RIISA! The Lord has blessed you with an INNER VOICE to help others! Mom is 84 and has been on Aricept, Citralopram and had bad expieriences with both. Now on Celexa and is having problems again. I don't like phsyc she is going to. Long story. She also has bad episodes with around very strong odors. In June went to Mall (She was driving then). THey had just remodeled and all smells, carpet, paint, glue, etc. She gets almost amnesia when strong odors hit her. No sinuses cause nose and lungs burnt about 20 yrs ago, all scar tissue. Mall sent her to ER and when I got there, my sister & i thought we should find out what happened. Did not think about smells until after she had been admited to the 'mental ward'. Have been on rollercoaster since.
sorry hit 'return' key. Thank you so much Riisa for helping. I will pass on prayer to Mom. I now believe that she may be OCD ! Disagnized at hosp with alzhemier dementia with behavior disorders. Don't believe it now. She is past Alzhemier stages. Looking for natural and will call her phisician who wanted her to keep going to his physc! Will find another one who has american name and try again! This physc seems to speicalize in putting parents in nursing homes and wards! (After checking with others whose paraents went to him). GOD Bless you Riisa! And all who read this. I am also a believer in AMerican Indian, and GAIA. All three have helped me cope. Look to your inner self, deep, where you were when happy. Then pray or meditate or whatever helps calm you. Meditation can be listening to soft, smooth music, jazz, or other, and just drifiting! Helps calm mind and body. Good luck to all.
hello i went to the doctor 2day cuz i was having hirrilbe thoughts if i ever hurt sum1 and was gettin images in my head and was gettin very panicy and depressed. he gave me propranolol hydrochloride..does this help?? plz let me knw.thanks.
Hey ive been having horid thoughts for maybe 2 months now, it started when i got stressed out. job problems. family problems ect..
i went to my doctors today and they said its just stress and all the things working me up just trigerd it all. they didnt give me any medication for it but said i need to calm down and beable to stop them myself. The thoughts i get are pretty nasty, all from being left alone with no one to take care of me to i heard on the news someone got killed i hope i never do that. it just crazy and not likley at all but it prays on my mind. im only 18 and also worry about my future and carreear (as i dont have 1 yet) .. i need to know if anyone found a good self help website to chill out or some how make these thoughts go? - please help !
I have crazy thoughts pop into my head. its almost like iam watching a movie of myself doing crazy things. however, its not to the people i care about its toward random people for no reason at all. i know there is something wrong with me i just dont know what and i want to know before i act out one of my movies. If im not seeing myself doing something crazy to someone else im seeing me do it to myself and i see myself saying goodbye to those i care about. Iam on medication already and it doesnt help my thoughts. it helps my deppression in a way
hi everyone my name is debbie and im a medium reiki master, spiritual counsellor and have been working closely with my guides and spirit for over 14 years. im here to work with the mind and have gone through many emotional issues myself, eg: fear, rejection, low self esteem, self worth, negetive behavioural patterns, depression, panic attacks, sexual abuse, innerchild issues. I understand completely and an relate to you all. please don't worry you are all going crazy because you are not! you are all very sensitive to vibration and will pick up on negativity from others including the nedia and news on tv. Unfortunately when we watch something negative it imbreads fear into us and the mind will play it back, it will be as if we have actually done ourselves it when we hav'nt! this then causes a projection of fear then flashbacks leads into obsessions and phobias! i find visualisation really helps, as i still often get flashbacks of being abused as a child. In the mind when we go through any forms of trauma the mind logs it and puts in into a sort of a file within the brain a bit like a filing system. The negative situation can remain dormant for many years until we are in a situation where we feel we are not in control or go through a traumatic time. Then bang the door opens and the negative situation arises and will cause flashbacks. Its as if we are watching a tv screen and see it being back played before our eyes, This is known as flashbacks where the mind will recall the situation again on a subconscious level.. This is cause on a subconscious level we hav'nt dealt with the situation. so it is brought up to the surface in order to accept, forgive release and let go and face our fears, which are just an illusion, and heal inside out. Remember our thoughts have no power over us unless we give it power! time to take back your power! The mind can only cope with one thought at a time and the negative experiences within our lives we tend to hold onto to. when a negative thought comes in replace it with a happy thought.affirmations really help. eg: my thoughts have no power over me, i release all fear, i release all guilt, i release all judgement, i release all criticism i release i let go! i love and approve of myself, i accept myself just the way i am, i am willing to accept positive change as pasrt of my new worl, i have no fear. its just our negative ego most of the time then we end competing with our negative ego and higher seves. it all starts within us self love, self acceptance and seeing yourselves through love and not judgement, forgiveness is the key to all inner peace! visualise a white light of protection around you, breathe in the light and let go of the fear and say to yourselves i am safe i have no fear! louise hay you can heal your life is brilliant! also you can call upon archangel michael to put a light of protection around you and your family and ask him to clear your energy field of negetive energy. also visualise a violet flame and say i release this negativity into the violet flame and i release it to its original source with unconditional love. the violet flame transmutes negative energy into positive enrgy and will lift your vibration and freguency archangel michael and st germain are the keepers of the violet flame.! You can invoke the angels and your guides to help you by giving you some healing, strength, courage and support. Medication st johns worts is brilliant, as well as evening primrose oil, vitamin b6 and black cahoosh root etc. Go to your local health shop and there are many natural medications to bring peace and calming to the mind. also reiki really helps, meditation, emotional freedom technique! also exercise and going for a walk alone the beach or countryside helps with being at peace with ourselves.Visualise yourselves happy at peace and well and reprogram the belief system with positive affirmations. The mind is like a computer it only takes 21 days to reprogram negative beliefs back into positive beliefs. What pereceive to believe isn't necessarily true but becomes true to us cause we created that reality, which then becomes true to us unless we break that belief and cycle. Accepting positive change is the first step! There are many hypnosis cds you can buy now adays including Paul Mckenne change your life in 7 days which is a book and cd, also innerchild cds by doreen virtue, you can heals your life cds by louise hay, also make yourself some positive affirmation cards and repeat them 3 times, four times a day in front of a mirror. Love and accept yourselves and know you are all beautiful children of god and deserve to be happy and at peace, but also worthy of love and respect! do not fear saturn the light is far powerful than the dark! lift your vibration and focus on love, light and peace. You can also do a visualisation board and put pictures on there of goals and aspirations you wish to achieve this year, eg: pictures of yourselves happy, healthy, at peace, holidays, perfect job, moving home, holiday etc. use pictures of magazines and stick them on the paper. then each day look at it and act and feel as if you have already achieved your goals and focus on how good it makes you feel! then take the necessary steps in order to achieve them as focusing on them will draw these wonderful opportunities to you and remember you are all worthy! A brilliant website whats up on planet earth it tells you what is going on, on the planet vibrationly and why we all feel low etc cause a lot we pick up is vibrationly from the planet. good luck everyone and remember never give up have faith in yourselves! hope ive helped you with passing on my knowledge! sending you all lots of love n healing debbiexxx
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