mixing medications

Could mixing several medications and alcohol change your personality (until meds and alcohol wear off) and therefore have you transferring hurt feelings and anger toward another person that has never hurt you?  I take welbutrin and sometimes Zanax.  On this particular day, I went to the doctor for a pinched nerve.  I was given Vicodin (500mg) and flexeril (sp?)(10mg). I stupidly took both, then drink a bottle of wine, and proceeded to drank a 1/2 pitcher of margaritas.  I don't remember most of the day, (I think I blacked out and at some point I passed out), but I did and said some awful things to someone I dearly love who has never done or said anything to hurt me.  I have almost destroyed our relationship and I can't take back what I said.  I want to believe that mixing all of those things made me lash out at this person just because they happened to be there; that I transferred my hurt and anger from a pervious relationship to the one person that means the most to me. When I was told all the awful things that I said to this person, I just can't believe that I was sane at the time.  I want to believe that I became mentally confused about who I was talking to and said things that were not meant for this person. Am I right in thinking that the combination of drugs and alcohol are the reason I became this mean and hateful person?  That I said things I never would have said? That said these things to this special person just because they were there? I desperately want to keep this person in my life.  I don't want him to think that I'm a lunatic and that I will do this again. I do plan to go back to my therapist for a little while just to try to prove to myself that I'm not a "nut case".

[Roger Gould, M.D.]

There is no question that being as incapacitated as much as you must have been with load of medication and alcohol could cause great confusion and account for what you said...that's a terribly big load,and dangerous in other ways, so you must avoid this kind of self poisoning in the future.

[sparkeler]

Um yes, I would say mixing vicodin, xanax, wellbutrin, and alcohol can definatly alter your personality and cause one to black out or go completely INSANE!!!. All these things taken by themselves alter your personality somewhat. So mixing all of them, I can only imagine. It's a combination of opiates, benzos, depressants (alcohol) and anti depressants.  It is not only stupid but toxic and dangerous and potentially fatal.  That said, we all do stupid things.  I've done my share.  We live and hopefully learn.  Explain to her that it was an awful mistake and you will never "party" like that again.  It was self destructive.

[buck6825]

Thanks so much for responding and confirming what I thought about my incident.  I just hope I can convince the special person in my life that I am not crazy or a monster.  Believe me when I say it definitely was the stupidest thing I've ever done. I guess I could have unintentionally killed myself.  Dumb, dumb, dumb! Thanks again and have a great holiday.

[headshrinker]

You have got to be kidding.  Moron.
Apologize and don't do it again unless you hav a death wish.
-HS MD-

[rocky2ride]

My girl friend or now I guess ex girl friend last Sept 2006 developed a herniated disk in her neck.  The pain required taking Vicodin for pain management until surgery.  She had the surgery and it appeared to be successful in relieving her pain until she began to run out of Vicodin.  This now would have been at the 3 months on Vicodin stage.  I might say also she is a licensed critical care registered nurse.  We began having relationship problems just after her surgery and recovery.  An old girl friend of hers began coming around just before surgery.  This girlfriend is clearly a 24/7 methamphetamine user and not employed. I eventually moved out of the house and she allowed this girlfriend to move in know of her