Alexithymia: MDAN facillitator needed

Alexithymia treatment needs "MDAN" = "non-addictive opioid MU Delta Agonist Antagonist" for feelings access as an essential prerequisite primary collabrative adjunct therapeutic facillitator

Hello,
From much online research, I have self-diagnosed as having Primary Alexithymia, only very modified as I have learned and posted much about this research and links to these research articles are also posted within the second URL's thread.  The main question I have is posted within the first link, and basically is that I beleive I have found a type of drug called an MDAN, for MU Delta Agonist Antagonist, which is a non-addictive form of MU agonist, which would be a primary treatment tool essential as the first necessary ingrediant in combination with some form of therapy, perhaps which would include use of hypnosis for regression techniques, to my early childhood traumas, (none was ever physical abuse, but my parents fought, and I absorbed all this conflicts as traumatic events, only cut off these feelings before age five so that I process information without the emotional information directly reaching perceptual awareness, even though it exresses all the time in my everyday speech, tone of voice, facial expressions, and gesture, etc, still this info does not get directly perceived in my perceptual awareness.  These MDAN meds were first patented in 1995, some 12 years ago, and were mentioned as being used on the military channel, so I presume are kept only for military use, as secrets, or classified or such.  The URL links referencing the info about these drugs and also about why this is the type of drug I believe would be what I need to begin to access this closed access, are also given in these two links described below.  Again, with this med, I could then begin to have the access established, and then begin to work thru some of these emotional memories, but without, there is no access, no emotional memories are accessed within my perceptual consciousness, by and large.  Is there some form of therapy which uses these MDANs in treatment to begin to access the rostral Anterior Cingulate Cortex, which is the primary gateway thru which emotional memories and here and now emotions actually gain access and are experienced within perceptual cognitive awareness as subjective feelings states.  Any information which you may have on MDANs would be appreciated, although I contacted one of the inventors who informed me these drugs are not available for clinical use.  (I had already surmised this, based on content I had found about this on the Military Channel.)  The general public could benefit, atleast for use of the MDAN for treating opening the rACC closed gateway, which is based upon the MU receptors being essentially turned off in this particular area 24, which controls access to perceptual awareness of one's subjective feelings.  Otherwise, there is a constant state of feelings numbing, which is the "norm," even though this is anything but.  From the Alex world view, they know not of the "Feeler's" world view or perspective, and a seen as odd by Feelers, especially by children, who sense you are "different," but cant explain just what they sense.  It will end up being you, once you develop a sophisticated conceptual lexicon, that will end up finding adequately precise vocabulary and constructs in order to clearly explain this information, as I have done so here.  This also takes many years of research, which I have also been doing.  Anything you might know about the MDAN drugs would be helpful.  If not, atleast you now know about how these meds could be used not only with alexithymics, but also to help reduce PTSD symptoms, and also help PTSD patients gain closer access to their traumatic memories, which they otherwise seek to avoid at all costs.
Thanks in advance for your reply.
Affects4me
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