Anxiety Over My Son

I am starting get really bad anxiety again.  This all stems from my oldest son being away at college.
I had him when I was only 16 and he is the best thing that ever happened to me during my teen years.

It's so hard to let him be without calling him every day and all day.  There is nothing wrong with him, he is doing well and is a very caring person.

My heart is just broken without him.  It's so hard to put on my happy face and go on.  I feel such guilt about being a teenager when I had him and that I maybe wasn't a good mom to him because of that.
I have talked to him about this in the past and apologized to him for being a teen mom and not really knowing how to be a mom at that age.  

I just cant stop thinking about him being out there wihtout us and it makes it so hard when calls his little sister to video chat with her because I see him on there.

I don't know how to find other things to do to fill the void in my heart.

Please help me.

[4Maddie44]

Hello, oh it is so hard to let our children go out into the world.  We want to protect them always.

I am so sorry you feel how you do.  Take heart that your son is doing well, and that you have been a wonderful mother to him.  You must have been or he wouldn't be where he is.  You must be very proud of him.

Alas our children do fly the home and make lives for themselves, but if you are lucky, like me, they are always there for you, because you were always there for them.

I now have 4 grandchildren, and am proud of both my children and grandchildren.  They have to learn to cope on their own.  I have been very anxious in the past over my children's lives, but everything has always resolved itself, mostly for the better, and I look back and wonder why I got in such a state.

Love makes us anxious, of course it does, but take time to take care of yourself now.