By My Own Choice

[ufcfan]

For a while now I've been on Paxil and finally after almost the worst weeks of my life I think I've gotten through the withdrawals! I'm also taking Welbutrin now which is helping wit my depression. This is where things get weird. The whole time I was on Paxil I was totally impotent. It killed my sex drive almost completely. Now that it's out of my system and I'm on Welbutrin not only is my sex drive back, but it's stronger than ever before! And even though I feel a noticed decrease in my depression I also feel emotions again. It seemed like the Paxil really took a lot of that away. Now that It's been almost a year and a half since my girlfriend dumped me, I can't be with anyone else! I was in bed with a girl and couldn't do anything with her now not because of the medication, but by my own choice. It's like without the Paxil all those emotions that were just numbed out are there for me to feel. I knew I wasn't over her but, I had forgotten how painful it is to think about her. So I went from being physically impotent to being emotionally impotent. Has anyone else had anything close to this happen to them? Is this just like some kind of a mental shock from being off Paxil and having some of my emotions back? Is it worth being off of Paxil if I'm still unable to move on? Should I even think about being with someone else if I feel this way while medicated and why is my sex drive so strong now!? I've never felt like this before physically and not being able to do anything with it is just as hard as not having any sex drive at all. Is this just an issue brought on by medications? Or is this a real emotion that I have to just face head on?

[ufcfan]

I feel bad about even wining about something like this on our forum. I've been seeing a counselor as well as a psychiatrist to give me my medication. I go to see my counselor tomorrow and I'll definitely take your advise and talk to her about this. I"m currently taking Welbutrin and Calonapin along with Lithium and Perphenazine (antipsychotic) and I seem to feel a lot better compared to where I was when I first started dealing with my emotional problems. You're right though, it will be therapy not any medication that will help me with deal with some things.  

[mammo]

The Paxil was numbing your emotions, feelings and sex drive.  Now that you're off of it all these things have come rushing back.  I don't think medication is the answer for you, I think therapy to help you accept and cope with the loss of your girlfriend.  I know it's hard to deal with, but trust me, you will fall in love again and will see why this had to happen.  Talk to a specialist about your feelings so you can deal with this and move on. Take care.

[ufcfan]

Thanks for the response. It's just weird what medications like antidepressants can do to your body. I definitely need to get help for the issues I'm having with my emotions for sure.

[M4Y0U]

Your sex drive is stronger now due to 2 factors. The first is the dopamine reuptake inhibition from Wellbutrin and the second is you being off Paxil.

About your emotions it is something you might need to address with a psychologist.

M4