Can someone please help?

[mrsdz]

I was in a car accident in 2002. A drunk woman crashed into me, she passed away in the accident. I have no memory of at least 10 minutes prior to this accident. I was a total mess blaming myself for this accident even though I knew it was not my fault. I had nightmares of this accident, it was always on my mind, after about a year when the emotional pain wasn't as bad I would get these flashbacks when I was in a car or trying to do something that I was no longer able to do due to pain from injuries due to the accident. I would cry for no reason, began talking to myself from time to time as if I was replaying conversations I had had with people in or helping with the accident that night. I was suggested by a few people including family members and professionals to seek help for post traumatic stress disorder but never did. I then for 3 years pulled myself out of this deep unhealthy way of living. Still having the occasional dream and flashback but not enough to dibilitatee me like before. As of 3 years ago all that had happened right after the accident and more began to creep up on me. I began to not leave the house for months on end, not even on the front porch. I stopped answering the phone to most people. I get intense fears of going out alone, I get a pressure in my chest, my stomach hurts. I have not driven in over a year and a half. I want to do stuff outside the house but it seems as if there is a block in front of me, it is not like I do not want to do things I can't do things. In the past month or so stresses have been at an all time high for me. I cry for no reason at all when I have conversations with visitors or on the telephone. I feel as if my body can not take the pressure of the way I am feeling. This is a feeling I would never of thought was true before having it myself. My husband has been desperatly trying to get me help. The people he speaks to lead him no where with no referrals or anything because they do not accept our insurance. I want to know what this is, how to treat it and where I can get outside help.

[mrsdz]

All kids nothern chicago suburbs

[TimmyVD]

What type of insurance do you have? Where do you live?