Cant stop negative thoughts

[butterfly_2014]

I've been struggling with depression for most of my life but its always come and gone. I was doing well for around three months and then I had an incident where I thought could cause my worst fear to come true. I wont specify what this fear is. All I have thought about for the last four weeks is this fear and that its come true. I went to my GP and was prescribed pristiq for the depression and frisium for the anxiety. It has definitely helped with my overall mood and even taken a bit of the edge off for the anxiety, so they are doing there job. The thing is I'm still obsessing about it and just cant shake the thought. I can have this anxiety overwhelm me at least once every hour. Its really making me exhausted from worry. These thoughts are irrational, I know that but its like I cant convince myself even when I try. My mind is fighting itself. Anybody else out there who is ruled by anxiety in this way?

[Stacey_80]

I am sorry that you feel that way. I do one thing that helps me get over the negative thoughts. I surround myself with positive people.

[butterfly_2014]

I am so sorry for all your losses and the cards you have been dealt. I have type 1 diabetes and have struggled with a few complications, I had an upbringing surrounded with domestic violence and a few other struggles but honestly that doesn't even compare to your problems so I really feel for you. That's not to say I don't believe you can get through this and find some happiness. You have dealt with these issues and still show and feel so much love for your children. Your amazing for that! My anxiety doesn't really stem from the struggles I've had. well that's what I believe. I do however have an extreme obsessive compulsive thinking pattern that cripples me for months at a time. I'm petrified of something in particular and nearly everyday I think there are different ways of this coming true. I had some really bad nerve issues about half a year ago. I thought it was never going to go away. The pain was there no matter what I did and I could almost have banged my head against a wall just to change the pain pattern. I almost took my own life over it. This went on for several months and Dr's were no help, in fact they were telling me its in my head! I finally met a really good DR from ER and she prescribed me with LYRICA 75mg twice a day and ENDEP 25mg once a day. it took a awhile to do it's thing, around 6 weeks but now after a good few months I am not in pain. before this I could not eat, sleep, walk, even talk. I was in extreme constant pain... Now I'm not. LYRICA is for the treatment of chronic pain and nerves. ENDEP is for depression and also pain.

Don't give up. There are people that can help you. some just treat it more as there job and less as passion. Weight loss is hard for me too! It takes me a lot of good food choices that are very hard! lol. Keep strong. I nearly gave up and I'm glad I didn't. It felt like I'd really been let down by life. I guess it was just testing me. It still does test me. You are being really really tested! But get through this test and the light will shine at the end of that tunnel! I wish you well x

[HollowFeelings]

You describe how my thought are.
I am on slow release venlafaxine. Started on it about four years ago.
Previous to this, in my teens, I was on Prozac for a chemical imbalance.
Had an eight year gap, without any meds. career was good. Family life was good.

then my world caved in; broken marriage, estranged sons, diagnosed with m.e. Cfs, second relationship fell apart. Dose went up.
My Partner was then killed and my life since has been bleak.
My kids that live with me keep me alive, they are my life.
Dose is upto 375mg now, I feel I have been kidding myself and all around me that I manage ok. I find it difficult to just be myself, like I have to seem ok to to other people. On the inside I feel: useless, I get up to sit down, to rest,  I have no energy, my mobility is rubbish, I've put on so much weight my clothes don't fit, my memory and concentration is utter pants. I can't look after myself let alone my home and children. I have Carers to run my home and look after myself and the children. It feels that I'm no use. I keep thinking of myself old and alone. I am not good with crowds. I am a hermit, only going out for appointments. I love my kids dearly but I feel useless. I can't play tractors on the floor or run around playing ball. My world is like sleep and awake, nothing in between. I am in massive debt of over 30k I will never clear in my lifetime that my ex husband left me with. I don't have a life. I am so fearful I will be alone forever, I am fearful of going outside. I want to meet people, but I don't like being in that sort of situation. I feel I can't trust people. I feel paranoid that people talk about me. I feel safe inside my home. But I am so lonely and afraid .... My mum is very poorly now. It's just one thing after another. I need a bit of life in my life. I hurt and ache constantly, with variable severe pain. I'm tired in day but can't always nod off on night. I have a multitude of symptoms I have suffered from since having m.e. I know that's that for me, so I try and interact with my kids, but they know mum is disabled and struggles everyday. Everyday brings difficult challenges for me. but my children keep me alive. I have a support worker etc, but she is not a friend, it's her job. I'm lost