Could I be?

In the past year, I have lost 3 people close to me. 2 of them were my uncles, and another was a good friend. The last death was last month. This was my friend. We worked together and it has hit me hard. I never imagined ever feeling this much pain.
So in dealing with all of this, I have discovered that I don't have energy for anything. I don't go out, I don't return calls. I am always tired. And I just don't want to be bothered with anybody. I finally realized this when another friend asked me why I don't hang out anymore.  And she was right.
I just go to work and come home. Oh and trying to get out of bed in the morning is the worst.  I often feel like I am worthless. And I just start crying.
This has been happening often. I try to tell myself that this is normal, but I am starting to think that its not.
I don't want to be crazy, but I am afraid that I am.

[azalea82]

It sounds like you are experiencing grief that may have turned into major depression.  Perhaps make an appointment and talk to your doctor about your concerns.  Medication and therapy can both help you with the extended grieving process.  

[ettebette]

Hi.  First of all, you are NOT crazy.  You are experiencing grief, which is absolutely normal.  You've had three deaths in a relatively short time.  This would make anyone depressed.  Please seek out either a grief support group, or a therapist who can help you work through this.  A few years ago, I lost a dear cousin/friend to suicide.  There are times, still, when I cry.  She is never far from my thoughts and my heart.  It does get better, though, in the coping.  Seek out help to assist you in coping, so that you can move on with your life.  YOUR life is important.  Please stay in touch and let us know how your're doing.  Good luck.

ettebette