Depersonalization/derealization

I'm having weird thoughts about my life and what my purpose is.  I'm also experiencing a third person perspective type view on my life and my problems.  I feel like I've lost touch with reality, sometimes I just stare off into the tv or computer screen for hours on end not accomplishing anything whatsoever.  I'm sick of watching movies and sitting on my computer all day I want to live a normal life.  I honestly feel like anxiety and depression have completely crippled and imprisoned me.  I hate this feeling of derealization/depersonalization it's driving me crazy I used to have an active lifestyle and now I feel like I'm retired and losing it.  I'm only in my twenties why am I feeling this way and how do I stop feeling this way?    

[mammo]

I agree with the above post, you need to start living your life and doing the things you've always enjoyed.  Sitting around watching TV or playing games is not healthy for anyone, but even worse for those of us dealing with depression.  The more you do....the more you'll want to do.  At first you have to push yourself, but do it.  You don't want to wake up and old man one day and wonder where your life went.  Decide today to take your life back and you steer the boat!  You're so young with so much living to do....don't miss a moment of it!  Best wishes!

[RainLover71]

Has anything happened in your life to make you feel this way because you mentioned that it wasn,t always like this and that you had an active life,what,s happened to turn this all around.I can relate,but i knew that i had to do things to keep my mind active.My work was a great distraction,but i now where your comming from,i turn to food to comfort me and got overweight.i had no motivation either until i just said one day that it all had to end and i started to take control of my life.All the best.

[mammo]

I agree with the above post, you need to start living your life and doing the things you've always enjoyed.  Sitting around watching TV or playing games is not healthy for anyone, but even worse for those of us dealing with depression.  The more you do....the more you'll want to do.  At first you have to push yourself, but do it.  You don't want to wake up and old man one day and wonder where your life went.  Decide today to take your life back and you steer the boat!  You're so young with so much living to do....don't miss a moment of it!  Best wishes!

[newportttttttt]

Thank you guys.   I'm really trying to get my life back it's just somedays seem anxiety free and others are almost unbearable I need consistency.

[Kat516]

I know exactly how you feel.  I too have had those days.  Playing video games on the xbox 360 or computer and doing nothing else.  Not eating or showering, just being.  Not even really watching the tv more just having it on to break the silence, or sleeping all day because my dreams are more interesting than my life.  I've started taking Zoloft and I feel better the obsessive thinking that crippled my days has subsided, but I still feel kind of down.  Please let me know how you are dealing with everything.  I decided to see someone because I knew I can't keep getting drunk or smoking weed to feel better all the time.  I had the same feeling of wanting to be active but unable to motivate myself.

[borci]

I know what you mean about feeling detached and not living your life.  I hope you can get back to doing things again.  I like the advice about forcing yourself to do things and you will want to do more.  I am now forcing myself to get out and do things.  It is sometimes very uncomforable but to live we must engage with the world.  I only wish I had more joy in doing things.  I just cannot give up though.  I hope you find things you enjoy doing.

Best wishes,

Borci

[newportttttttt]

Yeah what actually started this for me was smoking weed or at least my doctor thinks so...I'm doing better today, hopefully I can start feeling better consistently I feel as if I'm hypersensitive to everything in and around me.  Usually I start just fine and some crazy anxiety symptom presents itself and I react negatively which sends me into a downward spiral.  The worst is when I feel the derealization it really freaks me out for awhile I was convinced I was schitzophrenic...

Anyways I hope things work out maybe therapy with a combination of SSRI's will help me IDK I honestly think that it's more complicated than just therapy and anti anxiety meds.

[looloo141]

Hi, depression can really cause some crazy responses in our mind, I think a lot of us have been there.. I have a mood disorder so things are different for me, but I tend to have the strange thoughts/feelings/sensations when I don't sleep properly. I have physical feelings like trains going round my head, I can hear it, see it with my eyes closed, and it goes so so fast.. I have tripped out and seen spiders running up and down the walls, I have heard things.. all when I was in the dark place...
Somebody once told me that we experience these strange things when our brain has got fed up of us not releasing the pain.. that a good cry and a bit of a rant can help, as well as the meds and support from loved ones..
It's about small steps, I set myself really small goals, like today I will make sure I wash, dress and take a 10 minute walk out of the house..even if I lay under the duvet for the remaining 23 and a half hours at least I can say that I did those things..it encourages you to do more..
Remember this is an illness, and you need rest, a little exercise, good diet, sleep and support..
Hugs

[Ni204]

The last comment was very encouraging to me.  I am suffering from major depression and anxiety and have been for some time.  It got so bad I couldn't function anymore and had to be hospitalized.  My brain does some really weird things and has done so throughout my lifetime.  The biggest being this feeling of detachment from reality and the world around me.  Just not feeling a part of my own life...like I am on the outside speaking and talking, but not really there.  I have felt like this at least the last 5 years.  I am currently on Lexapro and am waiting to see if I can last a few more weeks with the negative side effects.  Some of which I am not sure if it's the drug or worsening depression.  I am also on Wellbutrin.  Is there anybody out there that has tips on how to deal with that spacey feeling in a positive way?  Will the meds I'm on help with derealization?