Depression and anxiety combined?

[Bambi1979]

Hi!  I have to give you a little background before I get to the depression part.  I am a 28 yr old female and have been experiencing problems with dizziness for about 9 yrs.  It will happen on and off for a couple of months at a time that I will be dizzy, then, in the months in between, I will feel fine.  I have gone to several type drs including:  family drs., several neurologists, several ENT's, several drs at Duke, internal medicine dr, and several ER drs.  The last dr I went to was an ENT about 1 wk ago and he thought I had Meneires Disease.  So he did an ENG and it came back normal. All these visits has been over a period of 9 yrs.  So, it depresses me that I don't feel normal.  I haven't worked in over a yr. and a half.  This last time, this feeling came in April 07 and still hasn't gone away.  I feel bad from the time that I get up, until the time that I go to bed.  I feel real jittery and shaky, it makes me sick to turn my head or even my eyes, when i walk, it feels like the ground is coming out from underneath me, I don't drive because of my concentration and awareness is not like it should be, I can't go into stores or be around people.  I don't want to leave my house basically because if I do, the anxiety is so bad that is makes me SICK.  I just feel like my head is a big bundle of raw nerves.  Anything sets off panic and anxiety.  I am REALLY sensitive to light and the slightest noise seems to run all through me.  If I take 1 Xanax a day, it does help, but when it starts to wear off, then I can feel all of this coming back.  My weight has always been an issue for me for about 10 yrs.  My biggest was about 180lbs. and now that I have been at 140ish for the last couple of yrs, I am still not happy.  I think about it everyday.  On top of that,  I lost my mother to Cancer 8 months ago.  When the drs. found it, they gave her 3 wks to live.  It was too late for chemo.  She had been seeing an oncologist for over a year, but he diagnosed her with something different.  She had appts. with this oncologist EVERY week for a yr. and he did bloodwork each wk, but didn't see this.  My mom would tell him each wk new symptoms she was dealing with and he blamed it on what disease he had diagnosed her with.  He never looked any further for something different.  I know it's not godly to hate people, so, I strongly dislike this dr.  He took my mother away from me before she even got to see me have kids or get married.  He took away her chance at life and I can never forgive him for this.  He doesn't understand what it was like to see my mother on a ventillator, then to watch her take her last breath.  I am extremely unhappy.  I go to bed around 4-5 a.m. every night and I won't get up until 1-2 p.m. everyday and I'm still extremely tired.  I don't feel like going anywhere or doing anything.  I just wonder if this sounds like it could be depression and anxiety combined that makes me so dizzy and all?  It's just that feeling this sick makes me so unhappy.  If I didn't feel so bad all the time, I could deal with things.  Can depression or anxiety make you where you don't want anyone to touch you (not sexually) just the slightest touch or noise will adjetate you?  Can it make your head and eyes feel really funny?  When I look at things, they don't look real.  Colors are more vivid and numbers seem smaller.  It's hard to explain and it sounds like I'm a mental case, but I'm really not.  It just seems like I'm on cloud 9 all the time.  Plz, anyone that can offer anything, plz do!!!  Thank you, I am desperate for some sort of help.  

[Bambi1979]

Thanks for the comment.  I am hoping that when I see this psychiatrist on the 29th that they will recognize what is wrong with me.  Which I am hoping anxiety and depression is what's wrong.  I have had EVERY test imaginable and they are all normal.  So, i'm hoping when I talk to her, she will give me something that will help to give me my life back!!!

[starr28]

Hi Bambi,

When I was first diagnosed with depression, they put
me through every test imaginable from hormone levels
to heart problems, etc.  Finally I saw a psychiatrist
who recognized the symptons of anxiety with depression
and put me on meds.  They have helped tremendously
even though I will probably have to take them the rest
of my life.

Best wishes,
starr28

[Bambi1979]

Hey!  I just sent you an email!!  Looking forward to hearing from you soon.

[Bambi1979]

Hey, thanks for responding.  That's the way I feel about my being experimented with.  When the drs have a situation that they don't really know the answer to, then it must all be in your head.  Well it's not in mine.  I know my body and when something is wrong.  I don't have the best of insurance either, because mine is self employed type of insurance, so i know what you mean with that.  But I am willing to go any length to be normal again.  Are you on any type of medication?  And seeing a pychiatrist for you didn't help?

[Bambi1979]

Hi and thank you for responding once again.  I am excited to hear about what you did to overcome this.  I have been dealing with this for so long that sometimes I honestly thought I was gonna go crazy.  I'm excited because this comes just in time.  My appt with psychiatrist is on the 29th, so, maybe you can tell me your story and I can share this with dr.  I just want a normal life again where I can work, go shopping, go out to eat, go out with friends.  I was sooo outgoing before, now, it's like i'd rather be all by myself until I get better.  I turn 29 in 2 1/2 months and I hope to be on the road to recovery soon!!!  Please post back asa you can!!!

[sharatan]

I too have had that,do still.was pretty much experimented on by the pharmacuetical industry,I hope you have better luck with yours;psychiatrist that is.My resources are limited to say the least,when I did try to get out of the system I was met with discouragement and no support.but then I am on that gravy train called medi cal/medicare.hope the best for you though.sharatan

[sharatan]

I too have had that,do still.was pretty much experimented on by the pharmacuetical industry,I hope you have better luck with yours;psychiatrist that is.My resources are limited to say the least,when I did try to get out of the system I was met with discouragement and no support.but then I am on that gravy train called medi cal/medicare.hope the best for you though.sharatan

[sharatan]

I too have had that,do still.was pretty much experimented on by the pharmacuetical industry,I hope you have better luck with yours;psychiatrist that is.My resources are limited to say the least,when I did try to get out of the system I was met with discouragement and no support.but then I am on that gravy train called medi cal/medicare.hope the best for you though.sharatan

[Bambi1979]

I have tried that route also!!!  Thank you SO MUCH for responding.  I'm glad to see that there are people out there who will actually listen to you UNLIKE SOME DRS!!  I'm not talking about the ones on here because most of the time they do give you suggestions!

[Bambi1979]

Hey, it's me again!  Thank you SO MUCH for responding.  I am actually seeing a psychiatrist on the 29th of this mo for the first time, so ANY suggestions would be helpful.  I'm up for trying ANYTHING at this point.  I want my life back.  You felt the EXACT same way?  I've had EVERY test imaginable done and everything is normal and I even had one dr. tell me it was all in my head.  I was like I'm not crazy, I know what I feel!  Please post back ASAP and tell me what you did!!!!!!  I AM DESPERATE!!!!

[ticked]

Well i found that i was all messed up because of my hormones and I mean i was in some dark places and i wasnt well, but i was put on the pill to regulate my periods and it was like night and day for me.  I am not sure if you want to get your hormone levels checked.

[Bambi1979]

Lately they haven't been.  Normally, they are light and lasting 3-4 days.  My last couple have been very heavy and lasting only 2 days.  Why?

[ticked]

I am really sorry for your loss and what you have had to deal with is horrible. I couldnt imagine seeing my mother like that at all it would kill me.

Do you have any other symptoms or is just the dizziness?  I do understand about the people touching you thing i get like that and i feel that I am normal. I get agitated easily and the noise thing as well. This may sound so odd but are your periods normal?