Depression or Anxiety

I am a 46 year old female, have a good job as a teacher and am in relatively good health. I do have high blood pressure, etc. My problem is that I think I'm suffering from depression or anxeity or both. I wanted to know if this is really what it is. I have lived with my parents always, my father died last year and I have lived with my mom since then. I also owe my mom alot of money for living with her and I was going through some difficult time so I didn't have to pay it back, which I want to do. My problem is that she recently told me that she thought it best I move out of her house and on my own. (I have no kids, never married, etc) My mom has always been like my best friend. Since she told me this I have feelings of thinking I have no one, feeling like what is going to happen in my future is not good, boughts of crying, just not a good outlook on things. The only time I don' t think about this is at work where I don't want people to know. I think she is trying to prepare me for life without her, but I'm having a very diffcult time. She is letting me stay until th end of October and I dread it every day it gets closer. I just wondered if there is anything I can do to make myself feel better about life and my future. I pretty much don't have any close friends either. Thanks for reading.

[Bubulous]

This is an opportunity to live.  It is never too late to get out there and give it a shot.  In my belief you get more lives than just one but if you waste one than you don't bring much knowledge to the next one.  I am not religious but I live my life one day at a time and it benefits me greatly. Hold your head up and good luck.

[freddie8605]

Change is hard for everyone. And by the sounds of things this will be a big change! she is giving you plenty of time to find some where else, and seems reasonable to me that she want to prepare you for when she goes.  I understand your apprehension, and anxiety about this, but i think Bubulous is right and you need to talk the bull by the horns, if you know what i mean> LIVE your life, join a local social group, in anything you wish, met people, live with the freedom and your own rules. I love being interdependent, i can do what i want when i want, of cause with in reason. You can do this!

The greatest feeling in the world is when you overcome a fear, getting that adrenaline rush and i am sure once you move out your mom with still be there for you,  she can still support you and maybe come over to dinner some times.

I am sorry i can't help more, but i hope what i have written helps.

Best wishes
Freddie