Depression

[Rose1989]

I tried to suicide many times .... Once I had 100 tablets... But nothing happened to me. Just vomited ... I will come to the point . I am 25 yrs old .when I was 4 years old my parents separated.my father got married again. But mom not.  My mom she don't like me. Even my family members also. My childhood days was horrible... I fell in love with a guy when I was 16 yrs old. After 7 yrs he left me n got married. He said he can't adjust with me anymore.. Bcz of my character .i am very doubtful...always fighting .. I used to cry everyday.. I don't like me. I am not looking nice . My character is not good. I am short tempered.i don't want to live in this world . I engaged to one guy. He too left me. Everybody hates me... My parents , my fiancé , my relatives, my colleagues..... I would like to live alone.. Nobody can adjust with me. I don't have anyone in this world.every day I am having tablets to kill myself. I hate my self... Sometimes I am imagine about my death my crying loudly .... I am really mad now .. I am doubtful to my fiancé .... I think he is flirting with other girls ... I am always checking his mobile. I throw his mobile my times. Now he got pissed off . Don't want to marry me. If I will get married to any guy , he will divorce me. I am spending my half of the salary only for flat rent.I am staying alone . I want to sleep always . Msg tone also irritating me. So nobody wants to share flat with me. I am very rude to everyone. I wanna kill my self . With advice I will never change .. Pls share some effective ideas for suicide pls

[Anneinside]

Rose, going to the ER is the first good step. After you are treated for suicide and are under control, get yourself a good psychologist to help you learn how to deal with other people and learn to love yourself. It is possible to have a better life.

[Rose1989]

Thank u . I will try to go soon...... It's getting worst

[nursegirl6572]

Sweetheart, I'm sorry you're in so much pain, but please don't harm yourself.  Please get yourself urgent help, go to your nearest ER, call 911, call someone, ask for help.

Life doesn't have to be this way, I promise.  You're so young with your whole life ahead of you.  

Please keep posting, we really do care, so many of us have been to that dark place, and so many of us have found a way to climb out of that dark hole.  You can too.  You're in my thoughts.

[Rose1989]

I will kill myself