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[Tamboman]

Hi There

I,m in a really good job and life is okish... apart from going through a seperation after 20 years ???.... However, i,m getting a little worried. I,m feeling really shaky, emotional and have the wierdest Detached Feeling..... and its not a place i want to be in or a feeling i enjoy... In fact i,m scared out my wits about it?

Tam

[Tamboman]

Hi Mammo
Thanks for the advice :) Its a strange thing Mental Health... I work in the field everyday with my job... I,m the head of alcohol services heh heh???? Its a lonely place eh? I got out my bed for the first time since Friday today to go and watch the footie then came back, fell asleep again and here i am.
I,m so happy for you ... you know that, finding someone... wow. I,m a confident person, but inside, i,m ripped apart, and if being truthful, empty and struggling....very tearful when i,m on my own... all i want to do is to sleep away time. I,ve been on 20 mgs of Citalopram for two years which isnt much so it must be doing something eh? Its just the "Being Alone" with my own thoughts which isnt nice... Their not nice either and i know all the Docs personally which makes it more difficult to talk and admit where i am?? Heh heh Life....Its good to have someone albeit a stranger to talk though, that way its safe.
Thanks Pal

[mammo]

I went thru this after almost 20 years of marriage, and it is scary.  You may want to see  a psychiatrist and get some help while going thru this difficult time.  I had to do this,  but after the dust settled, I was much happier.  Twenty years is a long time, and your world has been turned upside down!  It sounds like you are in a depression and you may need to take medication to make you feel better until it is all over.  I reached a point where I thrived in my new found independence, and enjoying my own company, which was new to me :)  Then I met the most wonderful man, and I wasn't even look to meet anyone.  I think everything happens for a reason, I know it's cliche, but looking back on my life, everything bad, turned out to be for the better.  It's just difficult to see this while in the midst of it all.  Don't hesitate to get help right now, and stay strong, and I'm here if you ever need to talk or vent.  Take care......