Embarrassed about depression

I'm a 16 year old girl and I've had a lot of issues with depression the last year or so. I have cut myself before, and I've had thoughts about death but only about what would happen if I wasn't around. I told some of my friends that I cut myself in hopes that they would help me get help, but they all think it's for attention. So now I'm really embarrassed about being depressed in the first place and I don't know how to ask for it... :/ after I told my friends I've been trying to act like my old self but I can't help but come home and get those overwhelming feelings again. What should I do about it?

[darkhole]

What about calling Kids help phone, 1800 668 6868 they could find some counselors in your area that you could call and set up a meeting to chat?

I would like to give you a hug though.
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[remar]

Do not feel embarrassed about having depression.Chances are, you may have one or two friends going through the same thing but they're just not saying anything.  Mine started in my teens too and I was afraid to tell anyone because I thought they would think I was weak. Now, I tell everyone and I do not care what they think.
You need to talk to your parents about how your feeling. If you feel you can't talk to them then see your school counselor.