Emotional numbness **please help!

[Rkk71]

I've been really depressed for about a year, when the depression symptoms got better at times I had terrible anxiety/panic but even that was easier for me to deal with. In the last few weeks I've took a turn for the worse. I'm not suicidal, but I have no interest in doing anything, and I'm really numbed emotionally to anything. I wake up, don't feel sad, don't feel worried, just plain old don't care about anything (just questioned myself why I'm on here even writing this). Ive tried ADs before and they gave me this numbing effect, which is why I stopped taking them. But I have a 10mo. old daughter, and I love her so much and this is really hard for me to say but I feel like I don't feel the joy I should being around her. I know I love her, but I'm not feeling it. It is really scary to feel like this, but at the same time I don't care? I would never wish this on anyone. I want my feelings back. I have an appt. tomorrow to see a GP and the next med im onto trying is effexor. I also see a psych in a few weeks, but I'm scared I won't end up going to either because I don't care. Has anyone ever felt this way or can relate to what I'm saying? Any meds that are known to be good for this terrible emotional numbness. Any help or suggestions would be greatly appreciated!!!!!!

[huneybee41]

This is my opinion who knows I may be wrong.  I would try to get into see the doc faster, If I could not I would ask a family member or friend or someone trustworthy to watch the baby and sign my self into the hospital a few days and find out what is wrong and get meds to feel better it may be post partem depression or may be some other sort of illness, definately get to see someone because it can get worse if you don't PLease get some Meds even if it means going into the hospital, you want to feel better and I hope you get to feeling better. God Bless