Yes, Anneinside makes a very good point. Make that appointment right away. And also look into getting an appointment with a counselor at your school. You definitely need help now. Your life can totally change for you.
You can't just wait to feel better, you have to do something. If you are not actively suicidal - you are not going to do it - then immediately make an appointment with a psychiatrist and psychologist. They are usually book out so ask to be put on the cancellation list to get in earlier. If it changes, you have a plan and want to do it, then don't wait for an appointment, go to the ER immediately.
ty and im still feeling the same way like i dnt see a point for me but dnt worry im not gonna kill myself
Hi sweetheart, Don't even consider ending it all. It's no wonder that you don't feel good about yourself and are depressed because it sounds like you have nothing but bullies surrounding you with terrible comments to you which are totally unwarranted. You could probably see a counselor at your school. I would strongly recommend that. You need to see reality more clearly which is difficult with the people around you calling you names and criticizing you. Believe me, their comments to you have nothing to do with you. It's just their inherent cruelty. It isn't true at all. If you really think about ending it all, promise me that you will go to the Emergency Room, the ER. If your family won't take you, then YOU call 911 to get you there. That's very important. That might finally get their attention. You don't need to worry about anyone seeing you like you are. You are precious. I can tell from your posting. And there is a lot of love out there waiting for you when you can get things changed in your home or get out of there. The counselor should be able to help you with solutions. Write back to me about how you are doing. You take care dear one. With love, Sara