Of course, I understand. I know that it is difficult and sometimes we pray for an easier way. There may not be an easy way but there is always a way and you will get through it.
Thank you. I will try doing that, I just need to think of ways to stop the pain and the crying, as it happens to often and it's really draining and exhausting.
You will never really be your old self again. You will be stronger when you make it through this but right now you are hurting and that is normal. How did you go through the grieving process? Did you get help?
I don't know how to make myself happy either but I know how to stop the pain. Sometimes to deal with things I just them pass because almost everything heals in time and everything changes. You are changing now and change is scary.
Sometimes I try to get to the core of the problem and aid myself in the healing process but it is just that- a healing process.
The cycles we go through in life hurt us. I have been through so many. However, looking back I have to realize that I am not that little naïve boy anymore. I had to pick myself up several times in my life when I was knocked down by tragedy. I still have the scars (some of them literally) but I wear the scars and I am still able to find inspiration in my life.
I hope you find some support and you can always come on here to chat or get help if you need to.
Good Luck friend,
Larry