How can i control my deppression?

I'm so upset when i found out my friends angry to me. From the first time, i'm their friends but later on, they consider me as mortal enemy.
And the other situation is, i don't have the trust of my father. He don't even accept my valid reasons for example, i'm late in house. and the most reason, i want to commit suicide is that i'm not happy being with tham. My one friend is always i worry because sometimes I don't know what's her emotion. She seldom say to me that she is angry to me and I feel so down that i'll kill myself without a chances. I feel so very down.......
My one friend, Says so many bad words about me and it feels so sad. Whan I'm was still young, about 8 yrs. old, I want to commit suicide. I am willing to kill myself because of friends, family and other important things around me. When I am failed to reach that i like,i'm depress. i know, if you have my story, you'll think that it is too hard to lose important persons in life.

[Fuzzz]

It sounds like you are possibly in high school.  I remember how important school social life was.  It seems like we almost created drama just for something to do, but it is a destructive form of entertainment.  

Since you have been depressed and suicidal for a long time, it is very important that you talk to your father and let him know you are not well now, but if you see the right doctor and get treatment, you'll have a better chance at success and happiness in life.  If your father doesn't understand, see if there is a school counselor who can give you ideas on how to get the help you need.