I am feeling so depressed that i don't know where to turn anymore please help

[chickie09]

I don't know what to do anymore with the way i feel , there are so many things going on and its slowly killing me . I am having problems with my fiancee and it seems i am never able to talk about my feelings . I love him very much but i feel unloved sometimes i feel as if my needs aren't important and ignored, if he dosn't love me why don't he just say so . I been crying alot lately and i ask myself whats the purpose of being here. Anyhow i just wished i had a real friend i could talk to , but i don't have anyone . Thanks for taking the time to read .
                      Chickie

[gmichael66]

Chickie,
The point is that you never know what tomorrow will bring, maybe thats the day that eveything will turn around.
The state you are in *****, I know, Ive been there, Im going through it now, but I know in the back of my mind, this too shall pass.
You are not alone, even if you truly were, you always have God, and you always have yourself. If you truly are your own best friend, how would you feel knwing your best friend doesnt want to be around or cant cope anymore.....??

Go for a walk, smell the flowers, read a book, buy a new CD, start a hobby, feed the ducks, go to a nursing home and make someone smile......I know they all sound like strange things, and you might not feel "up" to it, but remember one seed planrs a whole tree.....

The issues with your fiancee are just that, issues, not your whole life, that person doesnt deserve the powere to alter your life or control your happiness.

Cry, take a deep breath and then get out there and realize the entire world is there for YOU

You are in my prayers tonight,
Take care
Geoffrey

[mammo]

Are you hearing all these offers of support and advice????  People on here care, and do worry about others they don't even know!  Take their advice, and seek help.  If your fiance' doesn't want to hear it, find a professional who will listen, and if I were you, I'd re-think this fiance'!  This will not get any better with time, if he doesn't want to hear it now.  But I don't know the whole story, just that so many people are trying to help you, and it appears you aren't listening.

[chickie09]

I just wanted to say thank you to all that responded. I just don't even know where to start , i tried to do a journal but i can't even think staight anymore. I don't want to get anyone else down and thats why i haven't come online for awhile. Sometimes i wished i could share things with my fiancee but he always gets angry at me and walks out , i feel alone and i hate feeling that way , i don't know what to do about my life i don't even have friends and when i do get close to someone i always worry that i loose their friendship for whatever reason. I am even afraid to share on here .I am so tired of life whats the point of being.
Thanks again for your responses

[Craigers]

I hope you are doing OK? I am here if you need someone to talk to ANYTIME!  I know what it is like being lonely. But you don't have to be lonely.  I wish there is something I could do to put a smile on your face.  Well, anyhow, keep in touch OK? Hope to hear from you soon.

Craigers

[Craigers]

Hello Chickie,

My real name is Craig. I am here to listen to what you have to say cause I know exactly what your going through cause I go through depression just about every day.  I feel like no one wants to listen to what I have to say. When I do say something to either my family or friends, it is like my comments or conversation is not of importance. I have thought about cutting again, but I know that is not he answer.  I replace the emotional feeling with the physical ones.  But when I do get to the point of taking my own life I think of my animals. How would they survive without me. In relation to your post, I am saying pets usually are the best medicine when you need someone to talk to or a pet that just loves you unconditionally.  They listen to you most of the time and maybe even make you laugh.  That would be my alternative if I didn't have anyone.  I hope I have helped some. Leave me a post any time and I will do my best to help or listen the best that I can. I am well known for being very compassionate and understanding.

[happygirl1]

I feel that way a great deal of the time too except my boyfriend is my only support system. Are you journaling? many times when I am so sad or mad, once I write it down in a journal of nice clean fresh paper and put it where I think no one can ever read it but me, I feel like I cleanse myself of some awful feelings. Society tells us that there are certain feelings we just are not supposed to discuss. People with depression are not like that. If you cannot vent it somehow, then you turn it inward which makes you feel angry, unwanted and very insignificant. Often times also, your confidant just really doesn't know how to make you feel better and men are problem solvers by nature. They cannot just listen when you tell them something is wrong, they are already trying to figure out a way to "fix it!" Many times, we don't need fixing. We need a sympathetic ear and someone to understand you REALLY don't know why you feel the way you do. In the absence of that support, I journal. Everytime I journal, I feel so much better. It is as if every page I turn that is full of written emotion, lies it aside and I am able to move on to some degree. Try it sometime. The trick to it is to also make it something no one reads but you because that way you can be honest with your feelings..if not, then you are again bending to our society standards of what we are and are not supposed to say and do.! Hope this is helpful! I struggle all of the time with this ~

[Hensley258]

Do you think that perhaps this bout of depression could be situational?
There is a huge difference between situational types of depression and Non-situation types of depression.

Do you feel this way when everything is fine in your life?
You may want to start with a good therapist so that you can resolve some of this situation your in before resorting to medications.