I am very lonely and suicidal i dont know what to do

[debbiesue65]

I just had my boyfriend of over two years leave me.  I have no friends due to being disabled and home all the time and a single parent of two children who are school age.  I am more depressed than I was before and that is one of my disabilities as it is.  I have no one to turn to or to talk to and I am slipping away each day.  I don't know what to do.  My 89 year old grandmother is the only one around and the only thing she keeps saying to me is think about my kids but when you are in this state of mind you cant think of anything at all.  I just feel so hopeless.  I have been threw so much I wouldn't know where to begin = thats really a story in its self but I need to talk to someone  or do something quick.  I am isolated and lonely and I just don't know where to turn anymore.  I feel stupid typing this into a computer thinking that someone out there is really going to care but I figure its my last hope.  I guess if someone does read it - thanks you for replying.....  

[4Maddie44]

Hello and yes we on this site do care.  We care because we know how you are feeling, because we have had depression and know how hard life is when we struggle every day.  

You can see from the above messages how people you have never met care about you.  We will help all we can.  Just to know there are people out there who worry and care is a relief.

Keep posting and we will support you all we can.  We listen and will do everything we can to ease your pain.  

You have a great deal to contend with and I admire that you are coping well with what life is throwing at you at the moment.

I do hope you see a doctor and tell them all the things you have told us.

God bless you and your children.

[Ang0485]

Hi-
I am so sorry you feel that way. We all have bad days but just remember that each new day is one closer to feeling better. Please don't think this is the end. It could always be much worse. You have beautiful children who love you very much. Please have faith and know that God will get you through. Please get some professional help and talk to someone. It is so relieving to be able to talk to someone knowing they aren't judging you. Sending positive vibes your way my friend!

[nursegirl6572]

I'm so sorry that your depression is so overwhelming.  The good thing is, you realize that your depression is causing you to feel this way.  Have you considered an inpatient admission, to maybe explore some medication options (are you taking any meds for the depression now?), and some intensive therapy.

You KNOW that suicide is not an option.  You have kids that need you and a lot of people who love you and care about you who would be devastated if you were gone.  I understand that it's hard to grab onto those things when you're feeling so helpless and hopeless, but it's a good starting place.  You reached out here for help (which I'm so glad about), next step is to reach out to professionals who can help you manage this depression.

It's hard enough to live with depression, but then to be dealing with the loss of a relationship, that's really hard.  You don't have to do this alone.  There are SO many people who know how you feel.  We're all here for you.  Looking forward to seeing an update from you.  Keep talking to us.  You're in my thoughts.

[netty1988]

I've had depression half of my life and I'm only 25 last month it got so bad that I called a suicide Hotline and realized that that moment is just that a moment and doesn't have to define the rest of ur life...maybe try looking for forums to talk to people or therapy

[Yesidid]

Debbie? Are you okay? Feel free to send me a private message.

[Yesidid]

Hi Debbie.  Are you still awake?  I care and so does God. Today is not the rest of your life, it's just today and a really difficult one for you.  I am so sorry that you are in this position.  I attempted suicide at 2 points in my life, once because of drugs and once because my wife had an affair.  Your problems seem deep and painful.  Is it all about losing your boyfriend (which is serious I know)or is there more?