I feel like im the only one?

I feel like i am the only person in the world who gets these feelings. They are difficult to explain. The problem i have is i get these images into my head of what i want for example recently i have a vision of a comfy,relaxing pampering night in on my own with lots of cuddly things eg dressing gowns and a girly film and a nice big bubble bath, i feel like having this would make me feel so much better in myself, however i plan this and do exactly what i have in my mind and i cant seem to find any relaxation at all, i feel like everything i do is a chore. even things as simple as spending time with my partner and friends, i have been suffering with this since april and my doctor has been very supportive but i feel like i enjoy nothing at all. everything is a push for me to do, it doesnt matter who what where and when, i dont look forward to things or even enjoy any part of my day even though i am choosing what i do! but even though i feel like i want to do nothing, when i do this i start to hate myself for not doing anything because i get so many thoughts in my head! its like a mad rush of how i am and what i want to be. i am considering copying someone i admire because i dont see how i can make my life any better. Please help as i feel helpless and i cant live the rest of my life like this i am only 19

[whodunnit]

Hi,

You are describing symptoms of depression. Lack of interest, motivation, loss of enjoyment, feeling so tired doing nothing sounds excellent but you feel bad about doing nothing.

All depressive symptoms so I must ask what does your doctor say? Has the doc given you a diagnosis yet? If not, ask for ine and specifically ask about depression.

Look up depression symptoms on Google and see how you feel about the other ones.

Don't be afraid of feeling like that forever please, you don't need to if you are brave and face the truth about whatever it is, depression or not. Treatment can ensure recovery but you havbe to know what it is first and then seek treatment.

[Rachd]

My doctor has diagnosed me with depression and anxiety! my treatment was anti-depressants which i didnt notice much of a change in but continued to take them. i stopped taking these once i found out i was pregnant just 12 weeks ago and have had some issues at work so have hit rock bottom again.

my doctor is aware i have stopped taking my anti-depressants and has been signing me off work as they are putting me under alot of pressure and i was becoming suicidal whenever work confronted me which was quite regular. We found that ork was the main weight on my shoulders but since i have been signed off i am feeling all of the above things i have mentioned.