I feel so lost, how can I beat this?

[TeenieG38]

I have been feeling low for several months now but lately I find myself wanting to be alone more and more. I can't cope with work even though I love what I do.
We have been struggling financially lately too so I've had to work extra to just scrape by. I have no time for myself, can't treat myself and feel I am losing myself.
I want to cry all the time and feel I am just going to have continue this pattern until I can retire, which is decades away or I die.
I also lost my Gran recently and my grandad, who has always been so special to me, has become very mean. I know he is grieving but it is very hurtful and only adds to my feeling down.
I don't know how to get out of this rut I am in.

[swttea]

Hello
Don't give up in life.  I know it's tough and sometimes the road is hard but just know that there will be happiness and joy too but you have to fight through this to get there.  
Always remember that there is love and happiness waiting for you later in life.

Stay strong.  

[Bubulous]

Although they say that time heals all wounds, projecting a future that makes you think you will be stuck in this until you retire does not give you a very good outlook on life and something is bound to break before then.  Financial problems put a lot of pressure on us because it compromises our way of living.  I may ask if you have the ability to budget your money so that you can get some time off.  I believe that if you can get some time to yourself you will be able to have a better outlook on things.  I had to give up a lot for a couple of years when I was only working a few days a month.  The thing is:  I survived anyway without all of the things I thought I had to have.  I found happiness in the simplicity.  I cannot assume that I know what your living conditions are.  Maybe you already live simply and do not make much money.  Maybe you are a person who enjoys the finer things in life.... whatever the case... you need a break and time alone.  Eventually if you cannot do it life circumstances or your mind is going to make you break anyway so take as long as you like.  However if you can get some help and figure out a way to get some time to yourself this may not be necessary.

[TeenieG38]

Thank you for your reply. We live quite simply and we manage our bills. It just feels like that is all we do. It has also been hard to stay positive as I had an accident on my moped, my car broke down and several household items too. I know deep down that things will get better, it just feels like a constant uphill struggle. I used to be a very positive person. Now I feel like crying all the time and seize any opportunity to avoid other people and shut myself away from the world.

[Paxiled]

You're depressed.  Have you ever seen a therapist to find out why?  Lots of people have problems, but only some of us get depressed.  Try to figure out why this is.