I hate the life im living

[Mistaken012]

Since i was a kid I have been an outcast. I'm the youngest in my family and i feel like my parents gave up parenting when i was born. I sometimes think that the world is all a dream and it is a nightmare that i'm in. Everyday i wake up i hate going to school. At my school there's no classes i have with people i know, making it even more boring than what my life already is. People sometimes ask me who i hang out with when i don't have a response. I've had friends before, but i really never fitted in with them. I don't know if i'm depressed or mentally ill. And plus i have a hard time concentrating because i'm always worried about what people thinking of me. I am a male that's 15 years old.i thought i had social anxiety but i don't think i do. I can meet people if i'm by myself. But if i have a friend with me i tend to act shy when meeting people. I think i'm depressed but i never had a suicidal thought. I don't have anyone to tell what i'm feeling so i thought i could let it out here. I hope you guys can help me with what i'm going through

[WishfulSpirit]

That sounds a lot like depression to me, though when you're in your teens your body is doing all kinds of strange things that can screw with your moods. Is there a school counselor you could talk to? Can you talk to your parents? A youth leader or coach? Maybe your local Boys and Girls Club? You need to get help from a trusted adult before things get worse.

[confuzio]

It seems like a very typical.feeling at fifteen I remember feeling like that at times and now I have a brother that age who feels the same way. Just find something that keeps your.interest and makes you somewhat happy. Sometimes it just takes time for your mind and body to grow and feel comfortable. Just take it a day at a time and don't care about how people might be judging you. I used to always think about that and the second I stopped I felt like a new person. Try thinking your better then them and that they should hope your not judging them  -_0