I mentally went bad after a holiday, why?

[Declan_96]

Last June wen I was 18 I went on a holiday with my friends family. I was so energetic back then and full of confidence. Whilst on holiday I was drinking a lot and was having a great time, hungover everyday and seriously dehydrated with it being 36 degres in turkey.
One the fourth day in I was on a boat trip in extreme heat with no protection drinking alcohol a lot. I was feeling fine and was driving of the boat having fun. On around the third dive I suffered a nose bleed and thought nothing of it and cleaned up and continued to drink.
We got back to the hotel and just relaxed for a bit. We then went to get a kebab and then go out after but I just didn't feel strong or fully with it.. So I said I was going to call it a night.
That night I woke up around 2am feeling enclosed like I couldn't get out of this place and so alone, I believe it to be a panic attack and had to walk it of for so long.
I got up the next day and must of been dehydrated but stupidly got a coffee. It was the day to now go on a saffarri. Ever since I woke up I just felt so drowsy but I went on the trip. This is the point I was seriously a different person and just sat on the open top bus consentrating on not dying. It got to the point at dinner time where I felt I could no longer have the energy to walk and felt like I could collapse any second. I was confused. I lay down out the way of everyone barely able to talk, I asked for an ambulance and as it being turkey they say to expensive! So I basicly begged for some kind of transport to a hospital! Bearing in mind we was 30 miles away fr anywhere they called for a taxi. I dragged myself in to the taxi and got back to the hotel as the family said it would be best to go there first and see how I feel soon? So I did and I was that fatigue I just lay in bed. I could not eat at this point. I was then woken by a doctor who had benlen called and didn't seem at all like it was critical and if I'm honest I know how it looks.. This lad has been drinking heavy for the past week and its all caught up with him now..
I layer in bed for next two days barely managing to eat and serve diarrhea. It was now time to get a taxi to the airport home, I struggled to get to the taxi and had to stop on the way to be sick. I remember nothing of the journey as if I wasn't even there.
I got home and was in bed for days before eventually going to the doctors for bloods and urine and all came back fine!
It has been 7 months now and I struggle to get through everyday life. Depression and anxiety has hit me so hard and I'm that weak I struggle to do the simplest tasks. I can't think for directions no more or anything. I can still feel a big pressure in my head and my eyes. My neck has serious pain everyday and at night my heart races when I try to go to bed. I have been on cit 20mg around 2 months ago but came of them as nothing changed. I just see no future at all and have no pleasure in anything. I just seriously don't understand why this has happened and why i still have it. I do get the worst thoughts but I have to go walk them of and distract myself!I walk around all day like a zombie with no energy and constant light headedness.
Just would like to know if anyone has any similar stories where something like a holiday has triggered this?

[luxrai27]

First, consider the fact you can live the life you always wanted too live! when you know whats wrong with you why don't you work on them? Remember you got only single life, live it to the fullest!

[Declan_96]

My info must be wrong sorry only created this last night, I am 19 year old male. Thank you for your reply I will go to the doctors again and push harder as all they usual say is I'm suffering from depression and try and wave me of with depression tablets

[Paxiled]

Meant to say, you list yourself as female but say here you're a lad.  So we can't know much about you.

[Paxiled]

It obviously wasn't the fact you were on vacation that had anything to do with this.  But there are too many possible reasons for anyone here to tell you what caused it.  You drank way too much, drank too little water, were out in the sun a long time.  So, you might have suffered heat exhaustion, too much alcohol, you might have gotten food poisoning or drank water you weren't used to (assuming you're not from Turkey -- you don't say and list yourself as a female), you could have picked up a virus or bacterial infection, it could have been anything.  That left you disoriented, which apparently triggered an anxiety attack.  The thing about anxiety attacks is, they can be one off incidents or a sign of an impending chronic disorder.  So now you could be suffering from a hidden virus or bacterial infection you picked up that hasn't been found or alleviated, or, and this is more likely, you conditioned yourself because of the bad experience of having that disorientation to expect to feel like that and so you do.  The recourse of this isn't medication as a first treatment usually, that is generally when a disorder comes from an unknown source and is chronic, but therapy to see why you're holding on to this feeling of unease.  And to make sure your doctors really really rule out any possible physiological cause.  Good luck.