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I'm having suicidal attempts without even realizing it.

Okay so about a month ago I took I believe 20 pills of Midol, first 24 hours I felt my heart racing and started feeling anxiety. Then after I started vomiting, and started feeling pain in my stomach. I did not tell anyone that I took pills I just told them I felt bad. I guess I did as a cry for attention or help, I don't really know. My parents had to go to work so they left me hoping I would get better. I had later to go to the walk in clinic where the doctor wasn't helpful he just gave me some pills for anxiety and that's it. I just wanted to get rid of the pain or whatever. I started to really regret doing it, and decided that it was better for me to go to a hospital. So I did and after hours of waiting they finally put me on IV and did some urine and blood tests but they couldn't find anything wrong with me. They wanted me to stay over night but since I felt better I went home. The next morning I just went in for some ultrasounds but I already knew they wouldn't find anything. Monday of this week I did it again but now with Tylenol extra strength, same amount 20 pills, Dont ask me why cause that is one of the things I'm trying to figure out here. I would never want to go through the pain again ever, and I'm too scare to ask people I know for help. I don't understand it myself, I'm an excellent high school student, I have lots of friends, and a really loving family, people are ven jeaoulos of my lifestyle and I do feel overall happy. Something I should probably mention is that everytime I take this actions, I usually just had a fight with a friend or problems with my ex' boyfriend and his new girl. But I honestly don't even remember after a while that I had in fact taken the pills, like is just black in my mind and it takes me a while to remember why I'm feeling the way I'm, and that is what scares me the most, can I control this somehow? I don't want to die.
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2071518 tn?1340383343
My daughter committed suicide. Her life ended, mine was broken. One thing I have learned since is that suicide can be an impulsive act. You are so right to take this seriously! Please talk to your parents or a teacher, someone who can get you hooked up with a counselor. Maybe underneath your happiness are issues that a counselor can root out and help you deal with.
Sometimes in teen years problems seem impossible to get over-arguments, breakups. But the heart heals and if you can get help to support you through this time, you will learn to cope with life's dissappointments.
Please don't hide the fact you have attempted suicide-(to your famitly). It is not bad or shameful, just an indication that you are hurting inside and need help understanding it.
I applaud you for coming here and talking. You can message me, too.
Sending you hugs and prayers. I am going to add you to my 'watch list.'
Your life is precious. It will get better, but please get help.
Em
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2196504 tn?1351392195
Hi, I think I understand what you are saying and when I have really become unwell in the past I have given my medication to my husband who would sort out what medications I needed until the danger has past. Your safety is always paramount and as your not aware of what your taking getting support while you work through this is also what I would recommend straight away.
If you can please speak to your parents, they will not know how much your struggling or where to start. As a parent of a teenager with problems myself, I know any help I can offer is solely based on what my son's spoken to me about.
Take care and please let us know how you're doing. You can always send me a message if it's quiet here, no problem
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When you went to the hospital did you tell them you took the pills? If you aren't honest they will do a lot of unnecessary tests ( like the ultrasound) and won't be able to help you with the actual problem. Is your pain physical? Is it mental? If it is physical go to your family physician. If it is mental then go to a psychiatrist. The ER deals with crisis situations and if they don't find it you are released. If you had told them you had taken a lot of pills, especially on more than one occasion, then you might have been admitted for observation and treatment.
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4250330 tn?1388621179
I would recommend having someone to stay with u even if its a friend to stop you from taking them when u feel like you need to or want to. Talk to your parents about it it sounds to me like you lose control of your body
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