Is HIV fear, cause for depression?

I had protected sex with a CSW, am scared of a possible condom failure. after this incident i got really depressed, i stopped eating, had nightsweats, muscle aches, itching, and i related all to HIV. I could not get over the thought that i have contracted the disease, and i felt there is no reason for life, i started going late to work not working, not going out, not taking care of my GF, got back to smoking, and eating junk, i gained lots of weight. they say that to have a conclusive test you need to wait for 3 month, but a 6 weeks test is almost conclusive. i flew back home had a test at 7 weeks, and was -ve. i was not happy, and my depression is worst now. i cant stop thinking negatively, and avoid doctors claims that am not infected and am ok. I feel contagious, and am scared about infecting anyone, especially my GF. we are going through a rough phase, and i believe that we are about to end this relation. i leveled with her, but did not feel better.

I need help, please, is this depression, am on anti depressants (celaplex) not sure of the name, but its doing no good, started taking it last week. whats wrong with me, please help me

[HockeyShark]

Well, in a way. Sounds like Anxiety then depression. the 2 are very closely related.

Today's HIV tests are very accurate. Your chances of getting it from a drug free male/female vaginal sex are very, very, very, very, low. (Street Drugs such a meth lowering your immune system)

I am saying you are safe. Dont let the worry get to you. get Tested. it will be negative.

[mammo]

You've allowed your "obcession" over having HIV to ruin your life to the point that you may as well have it!  You're destroying yourself with this obcession, and you need to stop.  HIV tests are EXTREMELY ACCURATE and so long as you are careful, you will be fine.  When things like this happen to us we have to be reasonable and logical, and educate ourselves.  Then we need to NOT curl up in a fetal position and obcess about it, but stand up, trust what the medical tests have proven, and move forward.  If you had contracted HIV, would you not fight?  Would you not want to have the best life possible for yourself and all who love you and that you love?  You are fine, but there are people of all ages fighting extremely serious diseases, and doing it bravely.  You need to man up and get on with your life!  If this is an indicator of how you will respond in future problems, you're headed down a slippery slope.  You're choosing to remain frozen in fear, with no life, it's your choice and time to make a change......do it.

[PZIZZY]

Thanks Guys for your reply, it is really appreciated. I think am obsessed with this HIV thing, and my test prove that i do not have it. but what keeps me thinking about it is the Guidlines and that my test had missed the infection. three doctors asked me not to test anymore, but there is a Dr. who said that i should test up to 3 month. am always looking for bad news, and thats sad, and googling symptoms raises your alarm and makes feel that you have it. I decided to start thinking positively and that i do not have it, then my girl starts having rash and headaches after protected sex, and this makes me feel that ma going to be that unlucky guy who got HIV from a possible condom failure, and infected his girl. I know it is extremely hard to have all the bad statistics in one spot, and my risk of being infected as per the doctor is 1 in a million after my test. I will try to get over this, as it is ruining my life. I will go with your advice.

Thanks

[Hensley258]

I'm not sure what a CSW is, but your anxiety over this issue could be manifesting itself from obsessive thoughts about AIDS.

You had protected sex and I'm sure you are fine so try to relax. If it makes you feel any better, I spent from 16 to 32 years of age as a sex addict. In that time I had un-protected sex with well over 300 Women. Guess what..... I am 100% free of HIV or AIDS.

In fact I never even got Crabs. You need to understand that the actual odds of a non-needle using person getting AIDS is much lower than what the CDC would have you beleive.

Relax, you will be just fine. If it makes you feel better then wait several months and then go get an HIV test.

[PZIZZY]

Thanks Hensley,

CSW: commercial sex worker :)

actually i had a test at 7 weeks and my doctor said that its about 99% conclusive and i should not retest, but the CDC guidlines and the whole exaggeration about HIV made me panic, and i started reading and reading, and worrying endlessly.

I am moving forward now, today i shaved and promised my self not to check HIV websites and forums anymore. I feel good and i want to stay that way. thank you for you kind comments