Lack of Focus

I am in my early 40's and have had on and off (mostly on) bouts of depression since childhood. Was somewhat mentally abused as a child.

I have had a history of keeping my mind focused on me and my feelings instead of focusing and concentrating outward and on others. I do not live in the moment and have a habit of obsessive thinking. my focus and concentration has always been weak. When I speak, I always struggle to get words out and I analyze every word that comes out. I don't enjoy conversations at all. Words just don't flow. This has been a life long thing for me. I am analytically intelligent who is a professional and fairly sucessful (very irritable when I work and try to focus). It's difficult to go thought to thought as well and I have always stayed away of public events because it is such a struggle to speak to people. I feel like my mind is always weak. On top of that, I feel sensations in my brain that scares me sometimes. Like streaks of electricity. What causes these sensations? I am not on any medications at all and refuse to be. I do see a therapist for self esteem issues.

Thanks

[jo929]

you really dont say much about your child hood also you say you focus on yourself more so than others this is very complicated there are a lot of things that i could mention  but i hesitate with so little information does seem like you may need to work on having more self confidence in yourself also  self esteem and maybe in childhood is where it started and maybe if you resolve that you can move forward and focus on other things which may help al together  sorry i could not say anything more helpful     lots of luck  please keep posting one thing try to focus on others and see what happens bet it will make you feel somewhat better just an opion  jo

[jo929]

Plese keep us posted jo

[SHUBHANKAR]

do you bite your nails- please ans.?? very imp. Q?