Lost

I've been searching for someone in this world to help me! I don't even know if I joined this website right. I've been so lost. I've pushed all my friends away. And now I have none. I'm pushing my family away. And now I practically lost all of them. I don't know why I act the way I do. I'm 51 yrs. old and I'm wasting my life away!!! I feel so sad, empty, lonely, worthless, ugly etc...... I've been depressed my whole life. I just started getting help about 7 yrs. ago. And the only reason I did is because the stress in my life was so overwhelming! I've been to 6 Psychiatrist, 7 Therapist, I even tried about a dozen Nutritionist. I've been on so many perscription medications and none helped. Please what can I do?!

[4Maddie44]

You know when I joined this site in November last year, I felt just as you do now.  I lived for messages from friends on this site, as my days were so awful.  

I have had depression for over 20 years, and I know exactly how you feel.  I can't answer your question, "what can I do" because that is what we all ask.  We cry out for help.  I can say stick with this site, and find friends to correspond with.  We all know how you feel.  I believe it helps so much.  

Please feel free to talk about anything to me.  I am here to listen and support.  

Are you on medication now?

Keep in touch.

[shinty]

I have lost all of my friends also. I guess it goes with the depression. Feel free to post to me/us anytime. This forum, and a few others I visit on this site, have alot of knowledgable and friendly people. Stay strong.
                                                                Sean

[mercedeze]

You are nt worthless this is a chemical imbalance that you can not control do not blame yourself. I am twenty six and have dealt with this for ten years. My doctor said at the age of twenty I was the worse case he had seen. I didn't want to live anymore I wanted to give up. I thought this will never get better but it can and it will. I got put on zoloft and that has saved me it balanced me right where I feel normal. I still do have episodes where I get down. And for people that have not dealt with depression they do not have a clue how hard this is. I know you feel lost as I did I had no clue where to turn it seemed like it was never going to end you just have to keep fighting and find the right medication for you. If you need someone to talk to please feel free to talk to me. I have hit rock bottom on this and I know its a ******* nightmare. But don't give up . You are worth getting yourself better you deserve a happy life

[4Maddie44]

Depression is such a hard illness to cope with.  It steals everything away.  People who do not understand it feel they cannot support you, but you know who your true friends are when they stick with you and try to understand.

I withdrew from life as such, and found it hard to go out.  I could not even talk to people without bursting into tears.  Your friends probably just found it too hard, they didn't mean to hurt you I am sure.

Socialising is so difficult.  Life is ssuch a mountain to climb every day.

Keep on this site and talk to us.  We are all your friends.

Take care, and big hug

[nevesss]

i feel allot like you, but younger, so my family just expected me to do everything correctly, and for me to get help, and just shut up and get a job and be the sterotypical man that is part of the whole sterotypical world that they imagine and lets them sleep at night. i don't blame you for feeling afraid. when you have no friends or family life is like a huge maze where you are the only one. ill be here online sometimes i suppose. ill bookmark the site. my suggestion is to focus on finding people like you. i dont think you would get along with someone like a biker as much as you would someone your age and sex who struggles with an emotional disorder. at your age you are lucky because you have more time to go to things like groups and such. i would make it my mission to go to support groups, educational groups, and basically everything that your gut instinct goes with. if it doesent feel right dont do it. dont waste money on nutritionists or those herbalists unless you really know that they know what they are talking about. also, every doctor is different as is every therapist. ive found the best therapists are allot like me, or very empathetic.