MOM/BESTFRIEND/ME Confused Help!

I had posted about the relationship with my mom n how she didn't like my best friend/ lover?!! Yes i am bi-sexual im in love with my best friend who just happens to be a girl anyways I am 20 years old and i live by myself my mom doesnt bring her up much only when she gets mad at me or i need something she'll say well''Tell her to take you" again my mom doesn't know im bi well she prolly thinks it but i haven't told her um.. I'm just at a point in my life where i am very curious n I'm so much in love it's scary because for one my religious beliefs of being bi It's wrong but im so depressed because my mom talk bad about my best friend when she gets mad when my bf is always nice to her I'm just fed up of my mom telling me things and trying to control my life  i am a college student and am trying really hard in life . I don't have a job because i don't have time i have school everyday and i need the extra time to stude i pay my own bills n stuff tho so i figure  why is my mom so concered about my orientation? thanks everyone for your feedback i appreciate it. I LOVE MY MOM SO MUCH AND I THINK SHE'S A WONDERFUL PERSON! i just don't understand why she wud look down on me even if i am gay or not? SHE SAYS SHE LOVES ME I IMAGINE THAT'S UNCONDITIONALLY BUT IF THATS THE CASE WHY IS SHE BAGGERING ME ABOUT MY BEST FRIEND N WHAT SHE THINKS WE DO BEHIND CLOSED DOORS?! that's my business anyways rite? I can talk to my mom about me possibly being gay cuz if she gets mad at me one day she'll blurt it out against me or say it in front of my younger siblings and nephew -nieces who are between the ages of 4-12 what am i to do? I'd honestly rather keep it to myself because even tho im in love with my friend i know it's not a long lasting thing cuz i like guys but i wudn't look at any other girl the same way? what would yall suggest?... thanks again!

[selfgirl3]

Sounds like you need to seek out some of the great resources out there, for gay and bisexual folks!!  What you are going through is very normal, and very typical....coming out to family and friends is hard, but necessary.  Isolating yourself, your true self, from family and other support groups will only make you feel shame, depression, anger and loneliness....give your mom a chance.  She may surprise you.  My baby sister (now 27) only told my last year that she was gay.  I would NEVER have judged or otherwise not supported her, but she had convinced herself I would.  She is much happier being open, even if our Mom doesn't get it. It is a looooong life, and you don't have to pick any labels for yourself. Just be you, honestly and fully. And please DO visit some support group sites for gay/Bi issues, if you haven't already.