Memphis, TN Area

[Alone38]

Hello, This is my first post. I'm female and 38yrs old.  I have had M.S. for 6 years (diagnosed) I am a very private person and have no friends. I live in a suburb outside Memphis with my kids and husband. I'm taking 10mg Adderall for fatigue and Ativan for anxiety.

I am losing my mind. I have no one to talk to and I cannot bring myself to ask for help whether it be from a mental health person or a local church. I am having mental issues. I feel as though I will explode. I don't see how I wake up every morning. I pretend to be ok when I'm not and its getting harder to hide. My husband betrayed me a year and half ago and although he has repeatedly begged for forgiveness and is in therapy, he was the only person I thought I could trust to be there for me. What he did affected me greatly and destroyed what little self worth I had. He was my world, he was the only one who ever made me feel I was worth something.


I need a friend very badly who will not judge me as crazy and understands at times the MS causes me mental problems. I need a friend in my area. I need a friend who I can trust no matter what. I have no one and I'm dying inside.
I'm so alone.

[lbradley35]

I wanted to check and see if you were feeling better today.  It looks like there are alot of people close by who are willing to help you...including myself.  I was thinking about you this morning, because I feel very depressed today. I wanted to give you my email address if in case you want to talk. If you email me at ***@**** I will email you my 800#.  Just remember you are not alone.

I'm praying for you and all the other wonderful people i have talked to in this forum.

Lori

[lbradley35]

My name is Lori and I live outside of Little Rock, AR. I completely understand the depression and loneliness you are feeling-because I feel that way all the time. I too am on Aderrall and I just recently had it changed to two twenty mg pills per day.  It has helped alot. I also take Prozac 40mg to keep me from going crazy. I am 39 years old and have had a abusive past with a ex-husband, so I know that the stress and bottled up anger only hurts us more. I went to a counselor for a while and it really helped. I am about to start back seeing her again. You are NOT alone, eventhough we feel like we are.  The people in this forum are wonderful to talk to, but if you would like to talk on the phone...I have unlimited long distance and I can call you...and I have a 800 # for during the day.  We are not crazy, just sick with all of lifes problems added to it. Hensley258 was right when she said,"t's a private little Hell that only a fellow sufferer can relate to and truly understand. In addition, we can not even expect non-sufferers to understand. They simply do not have the ability to do so."  Email me back if you would like to talk, and that goes for anyone who reads this message.

Lori

[vetteohead]

I have tried a couple of times to post a response to this but they are not coming through. Sorry you are having the problems and people here truly understand. This is becoming a helpless situation to me dealing with other ailments and depression and I don't see life improving. I keep trying to focus on my families health and blessing and just keep my mouth shut. Seems most dangerous when you keep it in though and at least here you can bounce it off the walls anonymously. Hang in there. Maybe its just this Memphis spring weather that hit us. This is the home of the Blues - right? Dale

[Hensley258]

Check your Private Messages.

I live in your area and if you need a direct contact to me I can do that.

Your not alone. I used to feel that way too even though I have a family and friends, I used to have no one who really understood the torment of Cronic depression and this also made me feel alone.

Most people on this forum understand because we also deal with the Bizzar symptoms of this horrible disease. I have always said that, "unless you have experienced this disease called depression at it's worst, then you can not ever understand how absolutly helpless it makes you feel."

It's a private little Hell that only a fellow sufferer can relate to and truly understand.

In addition, we can not even expect non-sufferers to understand. They simply do not have the ability to do so.