My Story.&& Your Advice.

I Dont know the type of depression i am because i can relate to all of them.
Im new to this whole website, and came across it for some help since i cant afford the real deal.

Now im describe me.Short and simple.and no names.

As a child i was always alone. Always played by myself and friends werent always around, either moved or something. I even have memories as a child of always getting spanked or woop in the butt by belts. Yet my parents say that never happend but a couple times. Well if so then why do i recall it ALOT?
Not donee...
Age 9 i had a guy friend. Best friend as a matter of fact but one night he decides he wants to try and have his sexual desires with me. I didnt want to do it but he didnt care, Luckly crying for it not to happen saved my purity.
But. . Now at school or going in public and even towards my dad i feel men will try or take advantage of me even if there not. I fear being alone with a male. Weither i show it or not. How do i get over this fear?

Theres much more problems in my life. Family neglection, deaths, etc. Even family divorces -almost.
I eat to help my problems but that just makes my overweight problem bigger. Then i throw up to remove it.
I sleep alot. Maybe 40% of my days.
I have constant thoughts of suicide.
I've been through alot and cant stand how i am.
Help? Tips to end my depression?

[ProdigalGirl]

You have A LOT of complex issues hon and I am sorry for your emotional distress and the path you have walked. You say you cannot afford " the real deal". Well, their are free programs out there, you just have to really search for them. You say your in school. Contact a school councelor to aid you in getting help. You will feel better once you are in therapy. You don't deserve to live your life feeling this way. We are not doctors on this forum to diagnosis exactly what is going on. Don't give up! You made the first step by coming on this forum and told your story. That is admirable. Take that strength and find the help, seek and find any free assistance you can get and let everyone on the forum know how you made out. I wish you the best of luck. One more thing.. if you have thoughts of suicide.. please reach out for help immediately.


ProdigalGirl