Need advice on what meds help before talking to dr

[NikkiB1030]

So I was reading through here and everyone seems so supportive that I decided to reach out for the first time. I am 26 and have battled depression, ocd and adhd my whole life. Used to cut myself, attempted sucide at 16 and was just destructive. Went through the whole med thing, felt overmedicated and stopped. Did ok, even better after my daughter was born and been ok for the last 5 years. Well, everything then fell apart and I feel like if it wasn't for my daughter I would just end it. In a matter of a month I found out the guy I was living with for 2 years was messing with a 17 year old, lost one of my jobs then hours got cut on the other job. Now on welfare and food stamps I feel like a failure, I even had to tell my daughter that Santa wouldnt make it this year. On top of all this I'm balancing a full time college schedule.On medi-cal so there is only one pyschologist to see and I don't think he listens. Got me on 20mg of Adderall three times a day and 20 mg of Prozac at night. Tried to give me Seraquel but when I explained it made me horribly sick and unable to function he told me to just cut it in half and try that. I want to see if anyone has had sucess with a medication. Tired of feeling like I can't make it anymore. Thanks everyone for taking time to read this.

[j17c27]

Im sorry to hear about your troubles.  Unfortunatly, thats what happens.  At times life comes crashing down on you and you feel stuck and helpless...but somehow, life does start to turn around..keep that in mind.  Things can and will get better...your in school and thats great becuase when you finish your schooling you can get a better job.  Its tough now, but it will all pay off in the future.

I am on Pristiq.  It has helped me tremendously with anxiety, and i know thats not what your post is about.  But..it works with 2 chemicals in your brain which are seratonin and norepinephrine which are 2 out of 3 chemicals that  are linked to depression.  
Also, Lexapro is another one I've been on.  I've had way more success with Pristiq but everyone is different..keep that in mind.  Unlike Pristiq though, Lexapro only works with the chemical seratonin.
With every drug, you will experience side effects most likely.  However, if you fight through them (they last like 1-2 weeks tops) then it can be very effective.  When I started both Lexapro and Pristiq (different times) my depression worsened and i got horrible nausia for about a week.  I was about to give up on it but my doctor just said to fight through the side effects until my body is used to it.  Im really glad i did becuase like i said, Pristiq helps me a lot.

Just talk to your doctor, she/he will know whats best for you.  That is just my exerience with those drugs...good luck with everything, I wish you well.

[NikkiB1030]

Thanks for the replies, I have no close friends so it's nice to hear from people who understand. I wish I could lighten my load but I couldn't quit 2 months from the end of the semester without losing financial aid and failing all my classes. It's hard for me to grasp that just three months ago I was on top of the world, living with someone who I thought loved me, going to school, working 2 jobs and literally having more money then I needed. To have it all crash down in a short period is what brings me down. I did find a new job but I'm on a school schedule so off for 2 weeks in Dec and I dont even start until the 1st. I have no idea what to do about car payment, rent and insurance. Tried to get rental assistance but was told I was low priotory because I only have one child. Trying to hold it together but it's getting harder everyday.

[churnman]

Again, you are not a failure. You do have a full plate of distress in you life now. Not going to give advice on your lovelife but seems it may need so serious discussion.

Admire the fact that you still have time to pursue self-betterment through education but maybe you need to temporarily need to lighten that load.

[Drewper]

First of all, you're not a failure.  You succeeded at having a daughter who loves you.  You succeeded at getting enough of my attention to reply to your post.  I'm bad about being hard on myself so I hate it when I see someone else doing it.  
I wish I had an answer to your med question.  I've tried several different anti-depressants but always stopped taking them because of different side effects.  I'm about to start Celexa again but this time I'm gonna stick with it until I see some results.  I never can seem to stay on them long enough for them to work (2-4 weeks).
Keep your head up.