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Never felt his helpless and hopeless...Need someone to talk to.

Never have I felt this lonely, lost, helpless, and hopeless before.  Even though I've been speaking with a professional counselor for the past few weeks, 3 session, I feel worse than ever.  She referred me to a psychiatrist and after they called to set up the appointment (June 30th) I've been analyzing everything in my life.  I feel lousy and I can't even explain to you how nervous I am about going to the psychiatrist.  You know what though, I'm putting myself through this stress and worry and it's not going to matter.  There is no help for me.  I just need to accept the fact that I'm never going to be like other people.  I know everyone has their issues but I'm scared of everything.  Never have I even been on a date and I'm 26.  I hate my job but I stay there because it's the only thing I know.  No way could I fill out job applications and go on interviews.  Never am I going to even have enough money to support myself on the lousy amount I make and I work full-time.  I live at home with my Dad and he has to take care of a lot of things for me.  Every emotion or feeling I have I question to the point I don't know what I think or feel anymore.  When I'm not having anxiety and totally freaking out over everything I'm just really depressed.  Honestly don't even know why I'm posting this - I'm tired of whining about all my issues.  Right now I just feel as though I have no one to talk to and I guess I'm just hoping someone will read this.  No one close to me cares to know what I'm going through currently.  They are either too busy or don't understand how I can't just snap out of this.  My mom, who hasn't been speaking to me much at all, thinks I'm suicidal when I try to talk to her so we haven't been talking.  I would never do anything to hurt myself even though I am miserable.  Thanks to all that take the time to read this.
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I will be here on the forums. If you need to contact me my aim is taxired. Remember to stay calm, and you will not be put in a hospital. If you feel like hurting yourself or others go to the ER but tell them exactly what is going on with your feeling at that instant. Usually they will have a psychiatric liason (a person with a  good degree in psychology or psychiatry) talk to you. I know it is hard to fake it but sometimes the less you say can be better. You have to be direct, like "this hurts" or "this scares me" or "i cry because of". Keep out the hypotheticals and for now, live in the moment. I know it sounds impossible but It will open doors. If you are stuck in the past or future, besides being reasonably concerned about your future which everyone is, you will not be able to see the now. It is most likely the now that is bothering you. Just be direct about how you feel in this moment, and you will see that treatment is much quicker. People tend to worry their ***** off but if you just focus on what is bothering you at the moment you will most likely have a quicker and more accurate diagnosis and treatment. For long term issues, eventually you, like every body else in this world, should see a therapist. It's not something only weird people do. Most weathy people see shrinks and therapists. It keeps them on top of their game. I actually worry about rich people who do not see therapists, because the more responsibility you have the more neccessary it is to talk to somebody about it. Bottom line though, explain what is hapening in the now, and once your now is good, then talk with somebody about the future, the past, if you want, but definetely get a therapist. Remember that as long as your not taking drugs, or doing anything bad, you don't need to worry. If your in trouble however, get help. Don't waste your life in a job that promotes bad habits, or with people that are negative or unhealthy.

That is all just my view. You seem anxious. I'm horribly anxious. I just forget about the future and do everything I can to be healthy. You'll see, it works.
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Dont give up! Stick with the counseling! I dont have alot to say cause Im new here in this forum and new to my diagnosis, I am where you are, but today people on this forum gave me a little hope and i wanna pass some on to you! Keep posting and stay safe
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