Post Partum Depression and family

I had my son 6.5 weeks ago. I knew from the beginning that ppd was kicking in. I just recently began taking SERAFEM perscribed by my doc. It hasn't even started to kick in yet. I have a difficult time dealing with day-to-day events with the baby. When he starts crying, which he does a lot, I feel like I am going to lose it.

On top of having a new baby, my mother-in-law is in the hospital because she got drunk and fell down the stairs, breaking a vertebrea. She then fell out of the hospital bed and fractured her hip. I don't know if it is the morphine or what, but I truely think she has lost it. She is talking to animals in her hospital room, afraid that people are out to get her, seeing her deceased father...

How do I deal with this? How do I be there for my husband (Lord knows he needs me right now), my baby, and still take care of myself at the same time? Everytime I am alone I just cry. I feel like it is all that I can do.

[venora]

first congrats on your baby.Second give your med time to kick in.Sometimes it takes a couple of weeks to get the full effect.In the meantime you need to take some time for you.You have to be good to yourself cause if you dont you arent able to be there ofr the others in your life.Do you have a therapist to talk to?That helps alot along with the med.A therapist will listen and be impartial whereas a family member or friend cant or wont.I am bi polar and that  is what is seeing me through is therapy and my meds.
You hang in sis and take some time for yourself okand Post here all you want if you need to talk .I will listen.
Love Venora

[newlywed05]

Sorry I spelled your name wrong!!!

[newlywed05]

Thank you so much for your response. I know it is important for me to take time for myself. But that is so difficult to do. I am still trying to get in a routine with things for right now. And learn how to be a good wife, a good mother, and a good me all at the same time. I have thought about talking to someone in the past. Now that this has happened with my MIL, I think it is deffinately a good idea. I don't want to be stuck in a bad place. I need to get back to feeling normal. Feeling myself. My sense of humor is gone. I am just a completely different person, and I don't like it at all. It is nice to have somewhere to turn where people can sympathize with you instead of insisting it is just lack of sleep. I have been sleep deprived before (all those nights cramming for exams, nights out with the girls)....this isn't it. Thank you for your sympathy and your compassion. I will take your suggestions to heart and keep you updated. :o)

BTW, thanks for the congrats on the baby. He is the only thing that makes me smile most days. He is my heart.

[Haremiliana]

Congrats on ur newborn 1st of all I would like to say ur not alone I'm a mother of 3, 1 girl and 2 boys. Things wasn't looking good for me since my girl (1st child). My parents 'dumped' me with my maternal gparent since birth, when I got married my mom-in-law didn't like me so when I gave birth to her only my hubby was my 'backbone'. My mom-in-law always try to find my mistakes it was only recently that she change. It's best if you can talk to someone like a friend or neighbour and try to find the time for yourself and your hubby like when your baby is sleeping.