Scared

At school, I am as happy as everyone else. But as soon as I get home, I burst in to tears and feel like I hate everything. My parents feed me and buy me clothes, but It's not really enough for me unfortunately. We used to talk a lot and be a hugging family, but just because they buy me clothes does that mean I'm loved? I am scared and I feel that this is my parents fault because they aren't like my friends' parents. My friend parents eat dinner together, talk a lot, and stuff like that. I'm really getting tired of my parents' lies and stuff they hide from me that I know. I trust 2 ppl in my family, but my mom won't let me go to their house in a different state to tell them how I feel and maybe get therapy. If I tell them I'm depressed, they won't believe me becuase my parents don't know how I  feel. I've told a friend, but she doesnt believe me. If i tell my parents they may think I'm just lying cuz im only sad when Im alone. I'm really tired of having this disease for 4 years. It needs to stop, NOW! my family doesnt have alot of mony, but it never bothers me not to have money, so we cant afford therapy.

[blubell4921]

You don't need therepy just someone to vent to does your scholl have a student support group I remember mine did we could talk to each other and whatever was said did not leave the room. I used to write in a journal every night and that was how I vented.i will listen if you want to write to me blubell4921 yahoo com  

[BGOOD2ME]

When I was in school it helped when I talked to a school nurse or councilor. It's good that your venting on this page.

[xsmileformebabex]

I know how you feel, I love my school and all of the people in it. My parents don't tell me things in my  house either. They always talk about me behind my back. The only people that i can tell stuff to is my best friend cassandra, I trust her with my life. My parents think i am too young for everything. They need to understand that I'm growing up.I wish they would. They buy me stuff, and they think that makes me happy, but they're wrong!!! They always call me emotional, but if they know im emotional, then why won't they stop calling me that. They referr to me as the fat girl. Don't they understand I'm in my pre teen/teen years, I'm having mood swings and stuff. Everytime i come home i just wanna lock myself in my room.