This is me

let me start from the beginning of this 'diseas'. Five years ago me and my family went on a well deserved vacation. We had infact spent nine months in and out of the hospital with my sister who was sick with cancer. I dont know if it was because i was so young or if indeed ignorant is bliss, but i wasnt as worried as i should have been.

Anyway, all went well and i thank the doctors and a greater power for that. At the end of this vacation one guy decided that i had to have sex with him either i wanted to or not. He tried to rape me. Since that particular night my lifes been a roller coaster of emotions. Anger, frustration, temporarly euforias,  you name it.

I went a long time before starting on any sort of treatment. Today im on cipralex and i visit a phsycologist. I have gained 16 k and lost 5. so im totally 11 k overweight. i have always been able to maintain my weight and its frustrating that i cant do anything about it right now. no mater how hard i try, i just dont have the energi to continue a diet and work out to actually loose weight. this causes me to eat more.

if anybody has any thoghts on this, pleas feel free to post r opinion and thoghts.