Unappreciated

Good morning or evening or day or night or afternoon ladies and gentlemen and whassup. My name is Hamed Khatiz and I am a sixteen year old student, writer, drummer, would be lawyer, friend, former friend, adviser and many more from Sydney NSW. I am currently up and down. One day I am the most confident kid playing Bruno Mars songs and feeling on top of the world and then the next day I am wondering about losing my friends, as some may have heard, but also whether people are being honest when they say the amazing things they say and whether anyone else feels the way my former friends do about me now.

Losing my friends sucked and even though I am over the initial fallout, I still can't help but think. I still care about her, all of them, I care about everyone in my life and I just don't think they appreciate it back. I feel unappreciated and I hate being up and down like this. One day I am thinking about how much people love me and want to help me as much as they can and then the next day I am wondering if they really mean it.

Grrrr.

Sorry I wrote this so badly, I need sleep, it is precisely midnight in 15 seconds.

Thoughts, love, comments, whatever, it is now midnight help. If you are wondering what the question was, can you help, experts?

[Seriouslynotfine]

I am feeling unappreciated by my family and friends. I have been verbally abused by them through reality and online. I have done nothing bad to them. Nothing to deserve all these ****. I'm the black sheep on both sides of my family. I pray for them, I do everything for them. I prayed so many times to shorten my life and extend theirs in exchange because I love them all so much.


But what I'm getting now is all the selfishness that is coming from them. They are self centred and don't give a **** about me. I feel depressed as hell and no one bothers or even realizes! My mom just hides in her room and does nothing to protect me.
I am treated as a dirt.


However sometimes I feel the top too. I walk with swag and think a lot of ppl r looking at me. Sometimes when I look into the mirror, my low self esteem comes again and the whole world crumbles on me.


Idk what to do too and I really wish to help u too

[Seriouslynotfine]

I am feeling unappreciated by my family and friends. I have been verbally abused by them through reality and online. I have done nothing bad to them. Nothing to deserve all these ****. I'm the black sheep on both sides of my family. I pray for them, I do everything for them. I prayed so many times to shorten my life and extend theirs in exchange because I love them all so much.


But what I'm getting now is all the selfishness that is coming from them. They are self centred and don't give a **** about me. I feel depressed as hell and no one bothers or even realizes! My mom just hides in her room and does nothing to protect me.
I am treated as a dirt.


However sometimes I feel the top too. I walk with swag and think a lot of ppl r looking at me. Sometimes when I look into the mirror, my low self esteem comes again and the whole world crumbles on me.


Idk what to do too and I really wish to help u too