Unsure.

My lack of motivation and constant mood changes have me believing I am some what depressed.
I have noticed things like one minute I will be happy and chatting up a storm but as soon as I think about something that upsets me its almost like I am in a  state of comatose thinking about everthing that could have been better in my life and how I could have made them that way or how a life without certain people could have made things eaiser and everytime I think about all of these things I feel frustrated angry and sad all at the same time.. I don't cry often though I always feel it could help.... I am a happy person... but depression or at least what I think is depression seems to want to sneak up on me in the last year things have gone downhill!!! even though I have met the man of my dreams I still feel all these things...I can't get myself motivated and the outcome has been weightgain and lazyness when it comes to finding a job or having any sort of social life other then spending time with my boyfriend... I have a lot of stress and things just seem to be getting worse for me.. any comments that could possiably help my situation?

[brice1967]

I am not in the business of diagnosing medical issues, but your situation sounds a lot like mine.  (I was diagnosed as clinically depressed/minor (major) depression disorder years ago)  I'd suggest talking with your doctor as soon as possible.

I can tell from first hand experience that if things like this are left alone and not treated, they can blow up on you real bad.  I thought that I would be able to pull myself up like I had done so many times before, but as I got older I began to hold on to the depression when I would sneak up on me.  Before long, my depressed days were more frequent, and the moods would last longer.  The weird thing was, I would either wake up in a bad mood or the depression would just sneak in unannounced, so to speak.  I couldnt tell what the triggers were.

Here I am 14 years later being treated for my issues.  It is something that I now know I should have addressed with my health care provider years ago.  I lost too much of my life to this, and its time I cant get back.  

What I try to do now is look at the present.  I cannot control the past.  I look at who I have become, what I am learning, how beautiful my family is, and at how fortunate I really am.  Turns out that I do have a lot to live for!

Please get some help, you'll be glad you did!
Good luck