What do I do?

[antiprep789]

Constanly feeling hopeless, stressed about everything, overanalistical, too-logical pessimistic, lost, clasterphobic, saddended by ever whats said to be happy. Negivity, suicidal and homocidal thoughts, can't concentrate, and other. My parents and my older brother all use me as a scapegoat and put preasure on me to be more than I intend to. I beleive I'm depressed but my parents don't beleive it and think its a phase, they won't allow me to go to check with a doctor. It's gonna hit me some day and i can't come up with a solution... What do I do?

[92852]

Do find someone to talk to.  There are free health care clinics provided by all counties.  You should be able to find one in your area on the internet.  

Keep telling yourself that you are a good person who deserves good, because you do.

Bless you

[mammo]

You definitely need help.  Go to your school counselor and tell them exactly what you have told us.  You need someone to take this seriously, and school counselors usually do.  If your counselor doesn't, then go to the principal, and tell him/her your problem and go from there.  Also, try another family member, but just don't stop.  There is a better life for you, be strong and get someone to listen to you.