What is wrong with me?

[12345mike]

Too sum it all up I hate my life. I don't know if im coming or if im going. I have lost the will too live. 1 day im happy next im depressed as hell. Contaplating suicide. I drink and smoke weed too ease the pain but that can only do so much. I'm scared. Everytime I pick up my feet I get dragged down again. Who what or where do I turn too. Searching for answers but just coming up with my questions..

[Hensley258]

Follow the advice rliz gave you.

About the weed and alcohol....... They are just about the worst thing you can do if you are suffering fron depression and anxiety.

I'm not saying that because I'm some "prude," but because I know from my own experience.

I have friends that smoke weed and they are perfectly productive and mentaly healthy people, but they also do not suffer from depression and anxiety.

If they did I would tell them to STOP immidiatly.

If indeed you are suffering from a clinical depression, I can tell you for 100% fact that it will NOT go away on it's own. You can wish it away, youu can't smoke or drink it away, you can't sleep it away, and it simply will not stop ever, until you get it properly treated.

If you are in crysis mode, then call a local suicide hotline and they will be happy to locate a doctor in your area to treat your illness.

Good luck.

[goodgardenpeas28]

I know how you feel. I'm being treated for depression among other things but still I feel like I'm going to pieces sometimes. I still get days where I don't want to live but then 20 minutes later everythings fine. I think maybe telling my health care provider will help because if its something that can be fixed with medication or self talk I am willing to try it. I think your best bet is to talk to a professional. They have helped me so much even though im still not perfect.